I was browsing new age sites around a year ago and came upon L/L’s site. Most new age stuff seems vapid and almost anti-intellectual to me. Well, no such problem with L/L’s stuff. I feel like a babe when I read Gary’s recent questions over at the L/L archive for the last few months. Anyway, back to when I first came upon the site - Then I couldn’t believe! That it was in Louisville, two hours from Cincinnati. So I made contact and went down all miserable and depressed (my ground state) and met Carla and Jim and eventually Gary in their homey home. Ah that was painful, leaving the sessions that is – felt so good. I went a few times over a few months, madly rushing, which gets boring.
I live in what I generally consider a very conservative city, and in the most conservative area – the Westside, if anyone knows Cinti – where people identify themselves by Parish. No kidding. “I’m in such and such parish.” “Oh” Where many of my neighbors are third generation on this street. Where many people don’t go downtown – which is five miles away - for I think years: too many non-white, non-Catholic, non-middle class people down there for the taste of many of the denizens here.
My wife and I are separated, and we get along great now and raise the children quite well together. I live down the street from them. We homeschool, and she raises the children full time (more like double-time – 16 hrs. a day.) I am quite proud of her.
She is quite pious, and she tried a lot of new age stuff with me, but has opted to return to Catholicism for her spiritual needs – going to church daily, reading the bible daily – so there’s a congruency between the core beliefs – that Jesus was the central representative of the divine on earth to date, and spiritually revolutionized the planet. Much of the rest of her schtick I don’t much cotton too, but instead have this huge intergalactic theatre we call the Law of One, but it boils down to the same thing, what we do matters, to as many levels of reality as we can deal with, without all the shame and guilt of course, but at the deepest, core meaning, that what we do matters, the meaning is identical, and then of course having Jesus as very central too – just without the mystical murk of established religion. I figure if Carla can do ALL this as an Episcopalian, and especially knowing that it is that training that grounded her and gave her strength and gave her Jesus to protect her and all those in L/LResearch during the channelings, then there’s gotta be room for my wife’s piety. Law of One – of course there’s room for everything. Her social views are a little scary – fanatically anti-abortion – and views birth control as the greatest form of the oppression of women the world has ever seen – but lI don’t live with her anymore.
I’m into a lot of different things, pretty passionately, and most of them are quite “secular” but I always yoyo between the thing itself and LOO – right now I’m reading Naomi Klein’s The Shock Doctrine: The Rise of Disaster Capitalism which is grounded in history and economics, international relations and politics, and I am basically reading it, recontextualizing it as an odyssey of STS – Service to Self. It is a viscerally sickening story to me – and it connects a lot of dots from interests and studies of mine – I have a degree in Intn’l Relations, but the LOO reframe is very central. This story told by Klein is still much for me to digest, and I’ve put the book down for a few days and I have no idea when the impulse will come to me to pick it up again. But as I say, I use the LOO to make a deeper sense out of some, or many - I have to pay more attention to how much I do this - things I’m drawn to and which otherwise might have been too chaotic, too upsetting, for me to ground to my being..