(04-18-2020, 05:14 AM)Agua Wrote:

(04-18-2020, 03:56 AM)rinzler Wrote: I've been meditating and I keep going up against a blockade. It starts to physically hurt in my chest and it gets worse and worse until it is unbearable and I simply stop. Usually I get angry afterwards and let the anger out. Is that a good thing?  Should I keep going like this?

Unfourtnately I can't see a therapist right now-It's just not possible.

With the information given, I cannot advice.
However, I recommend keeping going.

Healing and overcoming blockages is not a matter of days.

If you experience physical pain:
- check your meditation pose. Is it comfortable? Can you have your spine straight without strain or much effort? Is there pressure on your chest from the pose? See if you need to adjust your pose.
- Do you experience difficulty in breathing? Like, you feel you are breathing instead of it happening automatically?
That might be a sign of control and a source of pain.
In that case, do not focus on your breathe. Focus on your whole body instead. You might want to try a mantra as a focal point.

With some more details on how you meditate, it could be easier to find the source.
However, the pain could also be pain that actually always is there and that you normally ignore/supress.

You could try meditating outside, preferably in nature, with your eyes open.
A type of meditation where you go deep inside is not always recommended. When you easily get lost in either pain, difficult emotions or thought loops, meditating outside with open eyes is probably better.
It will help to keep you connected to the Earth and not get lost that easily.

If all of that doesnt work, try a walking meditation.
Go for a walk, with a meditative approach. The helps reduce tension and helps act out stuck energy. I found this to be extremely helpful in difficult and overwhelming stages of my process.

Staying locked up inside is not helpful for depression.
And spending much time with computer/ internet/ games on one hand helps numbing you, but does add a lot to depression.

(04-18-2020, 03:56 AM)rinzler Wrote: I've been meditating and I keep going up against a blockade. It starts to physically hurt in my chest and it gets worse and worse until it is unbearable and I simply stop. Usually I get angry afterwards and let the anger out. Is that a good thing?  Should I keep going like this?

Unfourtnately I can't see a therapist right now-It's just not possible.

(04-18-2020, 09:25 AM)ostatni dan Wrote: hello everyone,

i have a question about a balanced energy centers and how it should manifest in daily situations through working with catalysts.

quote by Ra:

,,To the truly balanced entity no situation would be emotionally charged.

With this understood, we may say the following:

The repression of emotions depolarizes the entity in so far as it then chooses not to use the catalytic action of the space/time present in a spontaneous manner, thus dimming the energy centers.

There is, however, some polarization towards positive if the cause of this repression is consideration for other-selves.

The entity which has worked long enough with the catalyst to be able to feel the catalyst but not find it necessary to express reactions is not yet balanced but suffers no depolarization due to the transparency of its experiential continuum.

Thus the gradual increase in the ability to observe one’s reaction and to know the self will bring the self ever closer to a true balance.

Patience is requested and suggested, for the catalyst is intense upon your plane and its use must be appreciated over a period of consistent learn/teaching.''


so, a catalyst makes me angry, and when it happens i know in real time that it was my catalyst and it is making me angry atm. But what should i do with it from this point - feel the anger on the inside (do not supress it) but try not to act it out? And by doing this, observing my reactions in daily situations i will slowly start to let go of the negative ones? so to make it more simple:

feeling reaction to catalyst on the inside -> observing it, feeling it but not acting it out -> slowly letting go of negative reaction

(04-18-2020, 08:13 PM)Black Dragon Wrote: Alright, so I'm in the same boat, or perhaps a little further along...that phase of healing that doesn't really look like healing, where all the crap comes out-where I remember and basically re-experience the situations and emotions that caused some of the original blockages, but its just like feeling the hurt and overwhelm of all these problems again, but no solution. How does one move forward from that point and get past it, rather than repressing this fresh tide of blistering BULLSHIT and moving once more into distraction and repression? Yeah, facing it is step one, but how to actually process it and get through it is a different story. What can I do from that point forward?

The weather is s*** right now, annoying winds all day, otherwise I'd be spending more time in my back yard chillin' and across the street in the desert lot flying RC planes with fresh air and nature. I'll be sure to do so though when the wind clears up a bit. I should probably stretch and work on my posture, I'm all...I guess tensed up and rigid and armored all the time. I have a good general understanding of how the chakras work, but that in and of itself, as has been stated on this thread, is not proving particularly useful. What are some things I can do with my situation? Any advice is much appreciated.

(04-19-2020, 05:37 AM)ostatni dan Wrote: Agua, Dtris - thank you for the responses, i guess reaction being appropriate to the type of situation is what i was missing. But lets take it a step further taking into account that we are here to shed the love on society and help the world in moving into 4th density. Doesnt this imply - taking Jesus as an example - that shifting our reactions to love and understanding in EVERY situation is the way we should aspire to be? So literally moving from yellow energy center to being grounded in green energy.

(04-18-2020, 12:56 PM)Agua Wrote:

(04-18-2020, 10:25 AM)Diana Wrote: @ Agua—Your wisdom, work, and experiences you share are a gift here. Thank you.

Thank you for your kind words, this is  very encouraging
I m just trying to give back a little of what generous people gave me over the years!
And I surely have a couple more incarnations to go until one could speak of wisdom

Last week in an Ayahuasca  ceremony, on of the most beloved plant spirits I have the honor to work with showed me, how she goes about healing. It was so fascinating. And I didnt understand it.
She (the plant) laughed the most sweet laughter I ever heard, full of joy and love and gave me the message:
You can see how it works, you can experience how it works, but you will never understand as long as you are a human being.
And this much I know, it was the truth!
So, no wisdom here, just a few experiences

(04-18-2020, 03:33 PM)Agua Wrote: So, that was the context I was adressing.

(04-10-2020, 09:07 AM)rinzler Wrote: If not what else can you do in terms of excercises of the mind?