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RE: Unfeeling - Peregrinus - 02-27-2010 The chakras change every instant, always fluctuating, and the results of the test at that link cannot be exact, but as an overall guide it is not too far off. Of course, Ra explained how to test the chakras with two people and a crystal, but not everyone has a crystal or a spare other-self around ![]() As for feeling; when I began this thread, I was unfeeling. I have done as Ra stated, in much contemplation and in the moment, and have found Ra to be very correct (of course) in that we do not pick and choose our feelings; we must accept them all. I now experience a wide range of emotions, distilling the negative ones in exchange with positive ones. This takes time, but I am on the right path I believe. I still have my unfeeling moments, but they are becoming much further apart. RE: Unfeeling - fairyfarmgirl - 02-27-2010 (02-27-2010, 06:40 PM)Peregrinus Wrote: The chakras change every instant, always fluctuating, and the results of the test at that link cannot be exact, but as an overall guide it is not too far off. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() The sun shines even on cloudy days and at night too...fairyfarmgirl ![]() RE: Unfeeling - ayadew - 02-28-2010 Great post thefool.. thank you! I'm happy for you Peregrinus. Yesterday I did not feel any emotions, rather I found myself to feel comfortable and content with everything. Is that a neutral feeling? Is this of a higher vibrational state? Ra said that a fully balanced being do not feel any extreme emotions, but rather, are they comfortable with everything? It feels like it goes beyond the extreme polarities of despair and joy, because you accept that you are both of those extremes. I have tried to control my emotions. As you said, it's impossible. The moment you accept this and let go you will feel much better... strange world! RE: Unfeeling - Peregrinus - 02-28-2010 Contentment is a positive state, so no that is not unfeeling. For many years I was devoid of feeling; nothing; nada; zip; zilch. Looking back, it began when I was a child. I had likes and dislikes, biases, based upon my sto orientation, that which I did not understand or know about yet, but a lack of feeling. As I contemplate and understand this even further, with my understandings from the LOO, understanding that blockages of a ray manifest them self in a physical affliction in the location of the ray, I can see when this first showed up. I was fourteen or fifteen and I had several very sharp stabs of pain in which I actually thought I had been stabbed in the heart through the back of my spine. As it turned out, it was scoliosis, a minor case, but enough to cause me great pain. It was not enough, however, for the army to not accept me, and they told me about it, but that it wasn't severe. When I turned thirty, a cycle came about when I was given the opportunity to seek, but I failed to realize that was what it was and passed it up. I was bareback bronc riding rodeo, and my hand got caught in the rigging. I got my hand worked out but I was off on a kilter and came off very wrong, crushing a vertebrae right at... the heart chakra, where my spine was weak from scoliosis. I had six months off where I had to learn to walk/breath again, and then right back to work on oil rigs. After a year of extreme pain, I chose to select a different role in life, and made my move. In that work, as a consulting chemical engineer in the oil field, I had periods of time when I could have also sought, but again and again I failed to take hold. Only after having my daughter and drug addict demolished relationship was I put in a position where I did seek... well, I took notice. This led me on the path I am on now. I am currently working through both physical pain in the heart area while clearing and distilling experience which is allowing me to be ready to go back to my home density at the time of the harvest, and my daughter came to me to be of service to allow me to be able to do so. Although these many incarnate experiences I have been in on earth allowed for much exploration of both the dark and the light, I look forward to returning home to my loved ones. What I can tell you ayadew is that your current position is one which will not last for long, I suspect. All is cyclical, so you may have a further opportunity to continue your exploration of the dark place you were just in. Just as you were in the dark though, you will spend time in the light, so enjoy it while you can ![]() RE: Unfeeling - thefool - 02-28-2010 Peregrinus- another thing that came for you this morning follows. I could be completely off base here so you are the final authority about this, but here goes: You will probably benefit with getting in touch with your feminine side of emotions. like tenderness, gentleness and letting the things flow as they are. You have already experienced strong male emotions during the war and earlier episodes. Now it is time to balance. A gentle crystal like rose quartz or rhodonite might be appropriate. Your higher self has already offered you catalyst in terms of you playing both the role of a father and mother for your little girl. RE: Unfeeling - Peregrinus - 02-28-2010 Very intuitive thefool! I totally agree, and I have had two dreams indicating to me that I should do exactly such a thing. Your suggestion has absolutely cleared this up for me. I see it crystal clear now. Thank you brother ![]() RE: Unfeeling - AppleSeed - 02-28-2010 Catalyst works! :-) It's an amazing time, isn't it? Any old 'nuggets of pain' that haven't been cleared out of the system seem to be surfacing at a higher rate than ever, *and* healing at a higher rate as well. I can hardly keep up with the stuff that comes through. The unfeeling state I do know, the deep freeze of all emotions; it's a common coping strategy in extreme situations, such as war and persecution. Looking at the history of this planet, anyone who has been through a few incarnations here is likely to have seen more than enough of it. A lot of people have gotten killed in wars in the last century, and they (we) all have some healing to do. And yes, a feeling of balance and peace is not the same as unfeeling. Happy healing! All is cyclical, but it's an upwards spiraling motion. RE: Unfeeling - thefool - 02-28-2010 (02-28-2010, 01:15 PM)Peregrinus Wrote: Very intuitive thefool! I totally agree, and I have had two dreams indicating to me that I should do exactly such a thing. I feel happy when you feel happy and I feel sad when you do. I thank you my brother for making me happy and giving me validation ![]() I don't know if you notice these things but here is another validation for you- your post number was 66, your total posts at that time were 636 and it was posted at 12:15 PM showing on my computer. Too many repeating patterns of 6 to be ignored...( oh my God I just noted the PID= 11679==> 6 and dateline = 1267377351 ===> 6).... very Cool Huh !!! ![]() ![]() RE: Unfeeling - fairyfarmgirl - 02-28-2010 I would expand the 6 further and create a circle of 6 crystals and work within that circle to open heart and mind instilling compassionate wisdom within both. The circle will assist in creating a sphere of energy with which to work with... this is my experience I speak from. I am too continually healing a fractured vertebra... and from this I have learned much and connected with Fairies and STO Guides who have assisted me with suggestions and directions on how to heal myself. I am currently finding Novus Invictus oil from www.teachonlylove.com to be very very helpful in the healing of the chronic pain that I have... When I use the oil no pain... when I do not use the oil lots of pain... I like less pain it makes being a parent a little easier. fairyfarmgirl fairyfarmgirl RE: Unfeeling - kylissa - 03-01-2010 just dropped in to say i love you peregrinus and am proud of you ![]() RE: Unfeeling - AnthroHeart - 03-01-2010 (11-10-2009, 11:29 AM)Peregrinus Wrote: I'd give my left nut to be able to change from being an INTJ to a INFJ, but I would guess that that is what was programmed for me for my higher self. Note to self: Kick higher self's a$$ when off this planet. I don't know. I might either be INTJ or INTP. But I don't have a problem with sympathizing with others. An INFJ might get caught up in emotional stuff. Think of the other extreme. RE: Unfeeling - Peregrinus - 03-02-2010 (03-01-2010, 06:19 AM)kylissa Wrote: just dropped in to say i love you peregrinus and am proud of you I'm plugging away at all this kylissa, getting closer each day. Thanks for the love, I love you too ![]() (03-01-2010, 10:12 AM)Gemini Wolf Wrote: I don't know. I might either be INTJ or INTP. But I don't have a problem with sympathizing with others. An INFJ might get caught up in emotional stuff. Think of the other extreme. There are sixteen types, making it rather difficult to guess what one is. Take the test here and know for sure ![]() I was listening to the Sons of the Law of One today, and listened to the David Wilcock channelling his higher (Ra) self. In that, Ra said that emotions are tied to the physical body, so this made me think that they are not really required, but are part of the process which makes the illusion so much more vibrant. Seeing how they are ties to the physical mind, this also quantifies the fact that 2D animals have feelings too. I know many know and understand this, but yet many do not. I spent the last 20 hours being motherly to my daughter. She vomited at 03:00 AM an continued to do so until 08:00 AM, and then again every time I tried to get some Pedialyte into her. I therefore took her to the hospital at 3:00 PM, waited until 7:30 PM for a doctor to see her. Diagnosis was made, a syringe of something given, and she is keeping fluids down for a guaranteed 24 hours, so I hope she beats the bug she has before the med expires. I had a massive headache all day, and am listening to the Solfeggio frequencies. They seem to work better than any pain med on the planet. Oh, here's a pic of my beautiful daughter ![]() ![]() RE: Unfeeling - transiten - 03-02-2010 Goodmorning peregrinus Woke up early, the moon still up partly hiding behind thin clouds, later the blackbird was singing in spite of low temperature and i opened the window whistling back which reminded me of a song i wrote in my 20:es "Illusions" as i walked the streets of Stockholm with Kris Kristoffersson after recording his "Me and Bobby MC Ghee" that i had translated to Swedish. One line goes "As the first blackbird was playing time was 5 o'clock". I go to the computor and meet this little girl of yours, wish you both a quick recovery! Can you imagine yourself being that age? In my bedroom I have a picture of myself where i'm 2 years old and another one of my father holding me where i'm barely 1 year. When i feel "unfeeling" (that's a feeling too i think) angry or frustrated these pictures help softening this hard core i still have in some corner of my heart. And f.y.i the name is "Wilco-ck" ![]() transiten RE: Unfeeling - Questioner - 03-02-2010 (03-02-2010, 01:54 AM)Peregrinus Wrote: emotions are tied to the physical body, so this made me think that they are not really required... My belief is this: an emotion is the body's response to an interpretation held within the mind. Each emotion is the body's preparedness to act in case the belief turns out to be true. The body does not evaluate the mind's interpretations, but instead loves and respects the mind enough to take it literally. The mind can contain multiple, sometimes conflicting interpretations. Therefore, the body can also contain multiple, sometimes conflicting emotions. By mind I refer here to both conscious and subconscious aspects of the individual mind. Perhaps at this time, your mind has such a light and gentle release of any interpretations that emerge, that they are not held long enough for the body to develop a response. Perhaps also, the master circuit breaker of this connection has been temporarily disconnected by your higher self for your safety within the current context. Both Thinking and Feeling in Jungian terms are activities of the 3D body/mind complex. Both can be used to increase connection with Spirit. Both can be used to increase separation from Spirit. In 2D, thinking and feeling are spontaneous expressions of the nature of the species. In masters who visit 3D, both thinking and feeling are totally transparent ways that the spiritual essence of the entity is expressed. In our lives now, we see through a glass darkly. Thinking and feeling are the two LCD shutter glasses that blink on and off as we accumulate moments to integrate into a storyline. If one lens is stuck closed, you can still appreciate the show with the other. Seeing with both increases the variety of perspectives available for integration. But the value is in what we do about the storyline, not in how many ways we initially perceive it. Just my own interpretations for you to take, adapt or discard as you like. This is post #512 for me, so you can take or leave a byte and have a bit left over. Prayers for your daughter's healing and for your strength and wisdom to assist her. RE: Unfeeling - Biu_Tze - 03-02-2010 "Blackbird singing in the dead of nighttttt, take these broken wings and learn to fly! all your life, you've been waiting for this moment to arive, blackbird... fly.." By the way, that has got to be the best source of love and inspiration a person could have! I know you will be well just looking at that beautiful young woman! RE: Unfeeling - fairyfarmgirl - 03-02-2010 Pere-- A beautiful child of the rainbow! I will intend/pray for her speedy recovery! It is sooo stressful when a child is ill! Holding your child as you have been doing is one of the best medicines out there--Unconditonal Love. When my daughters last had the flu I held them as they vomited and kept them calm... and spoon fed them broth with a high sea salt content balanced by maple syrup (a sugar). A little spoonfull at a time--- and they began to recover quickly due to the hydrating effect of the broth and the high vitamin/mineral content of the broth. I have found for my own children and self this works better than pedialyte... My kids tend to vomit more when given pedialyte. It seems to have too much "chemical" stuff in it for their systems. Here is the recipe (organic veggies are best... but as budget allows): 2-3 carrots (washed and unpeeled) 6 stalks of celery including the leafy tops and the white bottom portions (washed and unpeeled) 1 whole onion including onion skins 1 clove of garlic Chicken bones with meat and skin 2Tbs salt 1 handfull of seaweed (any combo of one or more of dulse, Digitata, kombu, alaria,nori) or nettles Process: Cut onion in half and put in a pot. Add veggies whole or chopped. Add Chicken. Add Salt. Cover with water so that it is 1 inch above the food. Bring to a boil. Let boil for 1 hour. As it is boiling skim the froth that rises to the top off of the soup and discard. Add water as the soup is cooking to keep the water level above the food-- as needed throughout the cooking time. After 1 hour, reduce heat and simmer for an additional 1-2 hours. At the end of cooking. Remove from heat. Strain through a colander into a large pot or bowl. Discard all veggies and chicken. Return to stove heat to a simmer. Add 1 Tbs Sea salt. Add in seaweed(s) or nettles. Simmer for 10 min. Remove from heat. Ladle into a bowl. Cool slightly. Add in 2 Tbs of Pure Maple Syrup. Stir to combine. Serve. Now when I begin to make broth they come running to "taste" it. Love-- fairyfarmgirl RE: Unfeeling - Aaron - 03-02-2010 Aww, she looks just like her daddy! ![]() Ok well maybe not "just like", but I can definitely tell she's yours! RE: Unfeeling - wanderer4d - 03-02-2010 (03-02-2010, 01:54 AM)Peregrinus Wrote: Oh, here's a pic of my beautiful daughter (03-02-2010, 12:42 PM)Aaron Wrote: Aww, she looks just like her daddy! I agree with both of you! Doing a great job P! (No thanks required. ![]() ![]() RE: Unfeeling - Peregrinus - 03-03-2010 (03-02-2010, 02:38 AM)transiten Wrote: I go to the computor and meet this little girl of yours, wish you both a quick recovery! Can you imagine yourself being that age? In my bedroom I have a picture of myself where i'm 2 years old and another one of my father holding me where i'm barely 1 year. When i feel "unfeeling" (that's a feeling too i think) angry or frustrated these pictures help softening this hard core i still have in some corner of my heart. What I felt today is that no entity should have to feel the separateness of being, and I strive to ensure she feels complete and part of unity, and if that only begins with me, it is a good beginning for now. I thought that if there were anything I would change about this illusion, it would be that. It has not led to a great success in this harvest, this separateness, this aloneness, this lack of unity, though it has led to a new experience for the One Creator. Without being in the Logos' shoes, as it were, I can not tell if this is, or was, a desired outcome, but I do know it is an outcome which will affect all future illusions. (03-02-2010, 02:38 AM)transiten Wrote: And f.y.i the name is "Wilco-ck" I can call you Wilcock if you insist, but I haven't the foggiest why you want me to call you that :p (03-02-2010, 05:02 AM)Biu_Tze Wrote: By the way, that has got to be the best source of love and inspiration a person could have! I know you will be well just looking at that beautiful young woman! I agree, though she does inspire the ape's instinctual protection mode, not something which is, or will be, required for much longer. (03-02-2010, 10:02 AM)fairyfarmgirl Wrote: A beautiful child of the rainbow! I will intend/pray for her speedy recovery! It is sooo stressful when a child is ill! Holding your child as you have been doing is one of the best medicines out there--Unconditonal Love. Thanks for the prayers, though she is and has been one tough cookie since day 1, and I have no worries as to the outcome. Yes, she has had lots of extra cuddle time today. She actually wanted to be in the Baby Bjorn carrier facing me for a while tonight. ![]() (03-02-2010, 10:02 AM)fairyfarmgirl Wrote: Here is the recipe (organic veggies are best... but as budget allows): Thanks for the recipe. I make something very similar ![]() (03-02-2010, 12:42 PM)Aaron Wrote: Aww, she looks just like her daddy! People always say "She looks like you". I always reply, "Yeah, except cuter". I used to say "Yeah, except cute", but a number of women gave me a hard time for that, so I had to change my tune ![]() (03-02-2010, 11:13 PM)wanderer4d Wrote: I agree with both of you! Doing a great job P! (No thanks required. Good thing no thanks required. I shall end this post with a quote ![]() Quote:Flattery and insults raise the same question: What do you want? ~ Mason Cooley RE: Unfeeling - Questioner - 03-03-2010 Fairyfarmgirl, thanks for the broth recipe. Our household has been fighting the nasty flu type bug. Your recipe looks like a very soothing way to show love to tummies. RE: Unfeeling - Peregrinus - 03-03-2010 (03-02-2010, 02:48 AM)Questioner Wrote:(03-02-2010, 01:54 AM)Peregrinus Wrote: emotions are tied to the physical body, so this made me think that they are not really required... As it has been proven by quantum physics that both the mind and the body have their own thoughts that have sway on the other, both are creatures of habit, but only when the mind goes about changing it's thoughts and thus resulting emotions, does the body change its. The mind is indeed master of the body if one decides it so, but this is not the case for so many. (03-02-2010, 02:48 AM)Questioner Wrote: Perhaps at this time, your mind has such a light and gentle release of any interpretations that emerge, that they are not held long enough for the body to develop a response. Perhaps also, the master circuit breaker of this connection has been temporarily disconnected by your higher self for your safety within the current context. My body has always been under the control of my mind and still is. I can gain/lose weight any time I desire so. I can increase or decrease my heart rate or blood pressure by thinking about it. I can fail to eat or drink without ensuing physical temptation, and sometimes forget to eat two or three meals a day. I listen to the body to the point whereby if it has something important to tell the mind, the mind listens, but aside from that, it is number two in this process. When it comes to the unfeeling aspect, I am still coming to terms this. I cannot say exactly why I was unfeeling, but it did help me to gain the experience I have gained in this incarnate experience. I am still exploring these new feelings which I have accepted to be natural and part of me, and though I see many of them as being of the feminine nature, I am trying to embrace them. It is difficult though at times... having been one of those men many men envy because I did things, not just talked about it. If I had a nickel for every time some guys said to me "I thought about joining the army, but...", I'd be rich. I've run into many many wannabe's in this world. Me, I'm a hasbeen lol. I always enjoyed the one part of the movie "The Good, The Bad, And The Ugly", when Clint Eastwood (the good bounty hunter) is in the bath and a begrudging man of a deceased brother comes in and catches Clint there, looking to kill him. The brother, holding a gun on Clint, talks up a storm about his brother and Clint shoots him, having held a gun beneath the bath suds. Then Clint says "If your gonna talk, talk. If your gonna shoot, shoot". That pretty well summed up how I have lived this incarnation. (I may be wrong - this might have been the Ugly that said this... been a long time). (03-02-2010, 02:48 AM)Questioner Wrote: Both Thinking and Feeling in Jungian terms are activities of the 3D body/mind complex. Both can be used to increase connection with Spirit. Both can be used to increase separation from Spirit. In 2D, thinking and feeling are spontaneous expressions of the nature of the species. In masters who visit 3D, both thinking and feeling are totally transparent ways that the spiritual essence of the entity is expressed. Jungian terms... how is the lack of feeling involved in the connection with spirit? I would dare say that it is more feeling based, for intellect does not indispose one to understanding God as well as feeling God does. For my life I have had the set of bias' that the sto wanderer is given, though these were all in logical terms, not emotional. I have always had a strong logical sense of morality, been that white knight, always upheld right, disliked injustice, lies, wrong doing. I always valued honesty, decency, and dignity. I knocked the front teeth out of a bully when I was three (he was six), and went on to a life of a few hundred playground/bar/street fights. I never chose fights but for two (which I lost), but I always ended them (but for two) by destroying my opponent(s), even to the point of breaking bones and putting many in hospital for extended periods of time. I stood up for the man that could not stand up for himself, or the little guy being picked on by the big guy, or the guy with unfair odds against him, or the woman being treated badly by a man. When no one else would help, I was always very willing to. I could have never been there and done what I did if I had emotions about it. I simply did these things because they were logical. An injustice was being done, and I would have rather gone down swinging than to allow that. There was one point when I swore off violence, but after I allowed two brothers to beat me black and blue without raising a hand to stop them, I swore that would never happen again; better to go down swinging than to not do anything. Again, a motivator to me. I always figured at least they would respect me for hurting them bad, even if they did win (again, which only happened twice... which I believed was due to me being not on the side of good because I had personal involvement). I haven't been in a fight now in many years. I always been generous in nature, giving away 1/2 of what I have if someone needs or needed it. Possessions... I never cared about. I have earned several millions and have nought to show for it other than a few things. I have moved and moved and moved, leaving almost everything I owned behind without a care. I think the longest I have ever lived in one place in adulthood (beginning at fifteen) was seven years. I literally have lived my life wandering, a nomad, leaving behind me smiling faces and lighter hearts, many seeking to continue experience with me, but never seeing me again. I have often felt like I was in other's lives to give them a new perspective, to see the possible, and in these conditions I could not be feeling, for if I did feel I would have been restricted. It was always easy for me to break ties. It was necessary. (03-02-2010, 02:48 AM)Questioner Wrote: In our lives now, we see through a glass darkly. Thinking and feeling are the two LCD shutter glasses that blink on and off as we accumulate moments to integrate into a storyline. If one lens is stuck closed, you can still appreciate the show with the other. Seeing with both increases the variety of perspectives available for integration. But the value is in what we do about the storyline, not in how many ways we initially perceive it. You don't think perception is important? I am not trying to be argumentative, only to offer thought on this. We are here to gain experience, to learn about the self, and the only way to do that is though our perception with the limited six senses. It is these perceptions that steer our direct or indirect thought processes into choosing an action or inaction, and these thoughts are what is recorded in the Akash. Without perception, the storyline means nothing, for it is as a book that no one has read. Am I wrong? (03-02-2010, 02:48 AM)Questioner Wrote: Prayers for your daughter's healing and for your strength and wisdom to assist her. Thanks for the prayers for my daughter. She will be fine ![]() RE: Unfeeling - Biu_Tze - 03-03-2010 "Flattery and insults raise the same question: What do you want? ~ Mason Cooley" This quote is AWESOME, gave me a big ol smile! RE: Unfeeling - fairyfarmgirl - 03-03-2010 (03-03-2010, 01:09 AM)Questioner Wrote: Fairyfarmgirl, thanks for the broth recipe. Our household has been fighting the nasty flu type bug. Your recipe looks like a very soothing way to show love to tummies. You are most welcome. I wish you and your children and loved ones well. fairyfarmgirl RE: Unfeeling - Peregrinus - 03-03-2010 Quote:"Flattery and insults raise the same question: What do you want? ~ Mason Cooley" In typical earth interaction, this may be true. On this forum however... there is only love, real as the Creation is long, so flattery is love directed towards the other-self, the self, and to the One Creator. There can be no wanting here, for we have connection. RE: Unfeeling - transiten - 03-03-2010 Peregrinus! Are you serious ![]() As i first read your post you wrote that you were listening to the channeling of David Wil-COX!!! That's what i was referring to when i wrote "The name is Wilco-ck"...As i now go back it's actually spelled WilcoCK!? Am i dreaming, did you change it? Also i was thinking you really must be someone who knows his name so i felt a bit akward when commenting on it...very strange indeed.. Anyway, anyone could see she is your daughter ![]() By the way, i hope we will not loose our feelings as we evolve as spiritual beings ![]() transiten[/i] RE: Unfeeling - Peregrinus - 03-03-2010 You were not dreaming, Yes I changed it dearest transiten! :p It is a brain fart I often have, calling him David Wilcox... I don't know why though. Perhaps I know something others don't, hehe. A grafolog? Swedish for? RE: Unfeeling - transiten - 03-03-2010 Oooops, graphologist of course ![]() ![]() transiten RE: Unfeeling - Questioner - 03-04-2010 FFG, could I ask you to copy your healthy broth recipe (hugs & all) into the nutrition thread please? RE: Unfeeling - fairyfarmgirl - 03-04-2010 (03-04-2010, 12:39 PM)Questioner Wrote: FFG, could I ask you to copy your healthy broth recipe (hugs & all) into the nutrition thread please? I posted it as requested. fairyfarmgirl RE: Unfeeling - Peregrinus - 03-07-2010 I thought today that I would re-read this thread, and all I can say is WOW! A mere four months ago I was at the beginning of a path, one of coldness and solitude. I have only walked a few steps down that path, yet have made such significant progress it is mind(/spirit/body complex) boggling. Although there has been much hard work on my part, I would have been unable to explore all I needed to explore, to take these vast steps, if it weren't for all of you. Today I feel a small range of emotions, and most of all, connected to all of you and to The One Creator. I am now in the process of beginning to do as Ra suggested, contemplating, giving rise to each emotion, finding the opposite, and allowing all to distill into completeness, leaving only love. This is another road that is not easy and may take some time, but I am confident that I can achieve the desired result. It is with my most sincere gratitude and deepest heartfelt feelings that I thank you all for your kindness, understanding, and the sincere effort and thoughtfulness that you put into your posts. I am thankful to you, to the people that make this forum possible and run it, and to LLR for their work, which is still inspiring people to awaken every day. Each day the darkness grows smaller. I am truly humbled. Thank you all. |