Example of service to self satisfying in the shadows.

[Nowheretoday]

I was going through the tarot card number 17 faith and I read Ra's paragraph talking about how the most unhappy experience can be worked with the light.
Watch this video of Elliot Rodgers who killed six people.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/video/news/vi...ution.html

The service-to-self adept will satisfy itself with the shadows and, grasping the light of day, will toss back the head in grim laughter, preferring the darkness.

Couldn't help to relate Ra's line to this guy laughing with the sunlight on his face.

[AnthroHeart]

I've been tricked by negative beings before. They sure do love to make your life miserable, and ruin it if they can.
It's easy to be fooled by a negative posing as God or as a positive being. They are very crafty.
That's why I don't do channeling. I just heard what I wanted to hear.

When I read channelings, they mostly are about loving yourself and others. Stuff that's obvious by now.

The scariest experience I had was a negative being telling me I would be harvested to an octave of all Light and no Love, and that it would keep getting hotter in that octave and I would be trapped there. And I believed them. I thought I had messed up with violating others free will.

[Spaced]

I wouldn't say Elliot Rodgers was service to self polarized, I'd say he was just deeply confused.

[AnthroHeart]

Do overwhelming thoughts of killing others come from negatively polarized beings?

[xise]

Do overwhelming thoughts of killing others come from negatively polarized beings?

If you're asking about whether negative entities experience overwhelming thoughts: Overwhelming thoughts of anything sounds like an uncontrolled mind. Most likely a positive or confused/unawakened entity.

[Adonai One]

There is no true satisfaction in the negative polarity. There is only satisfaction in greater desire for little pleasure in the self and others.

[Plenum]

the negative path is about control and manipulation. They most definitely don't want to 'get caught'.

[Bring4th_Austin]

I agree with the sentiment that this individual was probably not an effectively polarizing service-to-self individual, and was more likely confused. Violence and murder don't necessarily imply a service-to-self nature, though these things could be an effective way to practice control over others and polarize towards self service. And certainly not all self-serving individuals are prone to violence or murder. Some may very effectively exercise their control over their illusion through other means, working within our societal systems and in each interaction with their other selves, always considering how their interactions may gain them more power, may put their game pieces into a more strategic alignment upon the game board of life.

I would interpret the Ra quote about the service-to-self adept satisfying itself in the shadows and throwing its head back in laughter much less literally. A strongly polarizing self-service individual will utilize the truth (grasping the light) only insomuch as the truth will serve them on their path. It serves an individual on this path much more to hide from the light of truth and take advantage of falsity to further their personal agenda of power. Their subtle work of manipulation and deceit in order to influence the people around them in ways which allow them to control, to put themselves into a more powerful and influential position where their illusion is more and more under their control, can be seen as satisfying themselves within the shadows. I imagine that a service-to-self adept who successfully manipulated or deceived a person in a situation which will then bring the adept more power will, in a inward sense, throw its head back in laughter, amused at its ability to control those around it and thrilled by the power it has gained from a well-planned action, its true intentions staying hidden from those whom it has "played," yet its desires being fulfilled.

[darklight]

I think the fictional character Hannibal Lecter would be an perfect STS candidate, a master in control and manipulation.

[Adonai One]

I disagree. He loves Clarice Starling too much and he's too easily satisfied by the finer things in life. Not enough goals, no desire for domination. He just has a confused satisfaction in killing.

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If I saw one character that has the greatest potential for the negative polarity, it would be Theon Greyjoy when he collapsed under torture:

http://gameofthrones.wikia.com/wiki/Theon_Greyjoy

As for his captor, he has too much love in his heart for the experience.

[darklight]

In fact it's very easy to understand why STS is so important for control and balance, especially in some (mid-east) countries. After the fall of some dictators, things are now heavily out of control. Just like Ra said: service to self is service to all. So, in my opinion, this 'revolution' is a very big misstake.

[Nowheretoday]

Here is the full paragraph.

The adept, whether positive or negative, has the same Matrix. The Potentiator is also identical. Due to the Catalyst of each adept the adept may begin to pick and choose that into which it shall look further. The Experience of the Spirit, that which you have called the Moon, is then, by far, the more manifest of influences upon the polarity of the adept. Even the most unhappy of experiences, shall we say, which seem to occur in the Catalyst of the adept, seen from the viewpoint of the spirit, may, with the discrimination possible in shadow, be worked with until light equaling the light of brightest noon descends upon the adept and positive or service-to-others illumination has occurred. The service-to-self adept will satisfy itself with the shadows and, grasping the light of day, will toss back the head in grim laughter, preferring the darkness.

What you see as confusion and insanity I think makes sense and is sanity for a STS oriented entity.

Maybe he was not a service to self entity and the title of my post is misleading but he was heading towards that path.

I don't think one becomes service to self magicly one day, I think traumatic and depressive experiences during childhood and teenager years get you in that path. Have you ever been depressed? ever been so low that you feel empowered by it?

Charles Mason even got people to kill for him, he suffered greatly during his childhood, instead of working with the light, he embraced the shadows.

Now these two persons might not be able to fully polarize toward STS because their freedom is taking away, but if they were not incarcerated, I think, chances are they would be able to do so.

Genghis Khan also went through traumatic experiences during childhood but he was a position of power and there was no system to take his freedom away therefore he was able to graduate STS. He was responsible for many, many getting killed.

"Violence and murder don't necessarily imply a service-to-self nature"
Posted by Bring4th_Austin - Yesterday 04:45 PM

Gangs and Cartels are a perfect example of a STS pyramid of power, the only way to get up there is by control and manipulation, the most aggressive and intelligent ones are the ones who climb the ladder. And centainly violence and murder is the tool of choice for them.

Now control and manipulation are helpful tools to polarize STS but killing the other self will get you more points.

Ra: I am Ra. We shall repeat these entities had the potential for sexual energy buildup. The choice of stimulus is certainly the choice of the entity. In the case of which you speak, these entities were strongly polarized orange ray, thus finding the energy blockage of power over others, the putting to death being the ultimate power over others; this then being expressed in a sexual manner, though solitary.

Yeah, you could say the ones who are in control of the illusory human slavement system prefer to use a "well-planned action" but in the end they send their pawns to kill for them in other countries to apply their "freedom" agenda.

JF Kennedy wanted to abolish the federal reserve, what did they do? they killed him.

STS acts look as confusion in the eyes of STO, I'm pretty sure STS see confusion in the acts of STO.

[Karl]

There's a lot of enjoyment in darkness if you can remove the beliefs that are in opposition to it. Easier to just be happy though.