Under attack... in desperate need of help...

[Night Owl]

Just thought I'd share with you that I don't think you have understood astrology right. It does not appear to me like a rigid system of belief but rather a tool for one to analyse his incarnation's basic starting point. You don't have to define yourself by your astrological sign. Your astrological sign only gives some basic guidelines as to what you have programmed your life to start with. The goal is to understand why you wished your life to start with this particular sign as something you could identify then move in a different direction. If you chain yourself to your sign then you are the one putting boundaries to yourself. It does not say anything about your present or future. Just because newspaper corrupt the principle into a future prediction bullshit doesn't mean that's what astrology is. Astrological signs are one of many systems of archetypes study and you can basically incarnate everyone of them at any time if you will. Understanding them is what makes one not get stuck into a single one actually if freedom is what you are looking for.

[im_not_me]

You have to cleanse yourself first, remove the distortions. Install your own programs, Clear the 'viruses', and monitor your vibration, if possible change it and escape their eyes. It's possible but takes true dedication.
They once found me too, brother. And I have scars to prove it. f***** up!!!!!! And somehow, yours sound even more f***** up. I have sorrow for you, because I know what it's like to feel like a target. They had s*** inside me too, and I neglected cleansing for a while, and as a result I have ulcers and other leftovers that are still manifesting and also some other leftovers that are going away. Still have a few distortions nonetheless. They sure know how to make you feel unclean.
And now, sadly I succumb a little, to blend. I intentionally smoke cigarettes for example, when quitting would be as easy as cold turkey, and I know alot of people say that but for myself I know it's true. Actually, quitting would be real easy since the smoking doesnt help much with my ulcer situation, but I got that covered. Until the great harvest is complete, you will have to hide. And to be honest I don't know how to help you right now, because I've been trying to help myself, in that regard. All I know is I'm Not Me anymore. I'll leave these lyrics here for you, maybe they will help you better than I can right now.

   And it's happening
   Never planned on this
   You got something I need
   Kind of dangerous
   And I'm losing control
   I'm not used to this
   What you want from me?
   I'm not used to this
   Can't seem to shut it off
   This thing I've begun
   And it's hard to tell—just
   Where it's coming from
   And it's hard to see
   What I'm capable of
   And it's hard to believe—just
   What I've become
   
   Hey
   Can we stop?
   Me, I'm not
   
   I can swallow it down
   Keep it all inside
   I define myself
   By how well I hide
   Feel it coming apart
   Well at least I tried
   I can win this war
   By knowing not to fight
   If I take it all back
   Some way somehow
   If I knew back then
   What I know right now
   
   Hey
   Can we stop?
   Me, I'm not.

[Aion]

Thought this was highly relevant and is also one of my favorite movie moments.

[bluevision10s]

Hey, I read your post and I think I can help you. For starters you need to relax. Practice the exercises in the books. And according to Ra whether you are service to self or service to others it doesn't matter. All things are one and all ends well. If you get pulled over it will be fine. If you need an exercise a good one is to lay down and focus on peace in all things. Be at peace with go to the negative dimension, dying, etc. All things are love. And according to Ra love is your greatest protection. If your ever in trouble send that entity with love/light that will help.

[Lovelyfaith]

I've had some problems with negatives, especially at the beginning when i was first discovering them- I didn't know but my curiosity was inviting them into my life.  I was wanting to learn about everything, the good and the bad, so I thought there was no harm.  I was doing some research on astral projection and was reading a number of accounts that I found fascinating, yet this interest also caught the attention of some not so friendly negatives when I was reading into some people's 'scary experiences', not knowing what they were all about.  

In the weeks preceding, I noticed a cloud feeling over me, it was very easy for me to see the negative side of things.  I would have outbursts (I am normally very quiet and reserve a lot of my angry emotions until I am able to talk them out instead) so this was not like me.  

On one occasion I was doing the dishes in the kitchen, my family and I had just had a great night playing board games and all of the sudden my mind just started going with nasty thoughts about my husband and how he makes me so mad about X and ... it hit me that I wasn't thinking like myself.  As soon as I recognized there was something attached to me I (with much effort actually) had to imagine myself in shining white light and to gently tell my unwelcome passenger that I would like him to leave and that I do not need his help.  At that moment I felt the cloud go and the negative thoughts were gone, able to resume my nice night.  

This is an ongoing thing for me, though not near as intense- I usually just feel a presence.  I need to be better at protecting myself when I speak to my higher self, and I think that's where it gets in sometimes because I pop in and out without thinking.  My advice is to NOT focus on the negative entities, they notice when you do and they will take advantage.  What helps for me is learning to love myself, I find the more I love myself and accept myself, the more I love others, and the less negative I think.  I know it sounds so simple but really your thoughts create your own reality.  Negative beings are not allowed into my life because I refuse to acknowledge them.  And when I feel a greeting I give it no second thought and put on my white robe.  

[Lovelyfaith]

Forgot to also mention I did a sage ritual in my house, just went through each room and cleansed it of all negative entities and thought forms, each room until I went out the door. I also put garlic in each window and burned them after a week until I felt that we were good. I also wear a black tourmaline necklace, as does all of my family members- Black tourmaline absorbs negative energy and is a fantastic crystal for protection. I placed the crystal (you can get them cheap on amazon) around my house and each corner. It sounds insane but it does block negative energy from your home, even my father in law hates coming over these days and doesn't know why, ha!

[Jade]

For what it's worth, I find it valuable to sage my house on the regular. It really does elevate the energy. There's one point in the material where Ra mentions an elemental trying to move in to the gang's house in the body of a dead mouse inside the walls, but being discouraged by the burning of incense. Pretty simple thing to do for energetic hygiene.

[Lovelyfaith]

For what it's worth, I find it valuable to sage my house on the regular. It really does elevate the energy. There's one point in the material where Ra mentions an elemental trying to move in to the gang's house in the body of a dead mouse inside the walls, but being discouraged by the burning of incense. Pretty simple thing to do for energetic hygiene.

Yes! On the regular, it's been a few months since I've done this and man is it overdue. I love incense, and that with the smell of sage is so uplifting and calming. I forgot about the dead mouse, that was so crazy, such a good reminder of how important it is to take the time to protect yourself. I've been so negative lately, and just last night I felt a breathe on my left ear, which I know wasn't good. This morning I was reading a post by someone on another thread that was talking about your mind controlling your reality, even though I KNOW this, it's so incredibly hard to live it each day. It's one of those things that you need to constantly remind yourself of, especially when the energy around you is toxic and low. Some days this veil is incredibly thick and vivid, so protecting yourself will and does help.