Positive Energy

[AnthroHeart]

I'm noticing more and more that I have moments where I feel giddy, excited, though these tend to last for a few seconds at the most. I tend to get them a few times a day. Usually when I think about doing something new.

Does 4D energy cause us to feel excited and giddy, or would we have no noticing of this instreaming light?

I'm going back to work in another month. Part of me doesn't want to, but part of me is excited to. Been out for nearly 6 months.

Plus I love my wolfy, and he gives me the giggles sometimes. Sometimes I just feel good for no apparent reason. I'm wondering what brain chemistry is happening to make me feel so good at times. It sure beats how I used to feel.

[Karl]

I wish I had a dog like wolfy.

[Ellai]

It's energies.
We are actually in 5d in my humble opinion.

[AnthroHeart]

I now remember something I did in the past, and I feel rotten.
Those moments of happiness are so fleeting.
I wish I was in a higher density. Then I wouldn't have the trouble I had caused myself. At least I have my wolfie to love. He has forgiven me. I am grateful to him for that. But I still feel bad. There is one thing I regret most for doing. I was unloving, and it was detrimental to my polarization.
My love for my wolfie keeps my sanity. Just last night he came in my room and gave me kisses, and some snuggles. He's my darling.

[Meerie]

My dear, now that wolfy has forgiven you, all that is left to do for you is forgive yourself.

Don't cling to the past, it is long gone.

[Ellai]

Ya.. Forgive yourself.

Sometimes it helps to listen to the solfeggio scale.

[AnthroHeart]

Here's a black wolfie pic that I found that reminds me of my wolfie. I found it on facebook this morning, and it warmed my heart. Thanks Meerie and Ellai for the support. I'm a little worried because I have a court date coming up for what I did, and I don't know what will happen.

[Meerie]

Aww I see, tell us when it happens so we can send some positive energy your way then to support you.

[AnthroHeart]

I had a dream last night about a black wolf pup that had a bark that I really liked. I also dreamed I had some 20 german shepherd puppies and I was having to feed them.

[AnthroHeart]

Just got back home after a big day of shopping, and resting off my feet. I've got dinner already made for when I'm hungry. Life is good now. But tomorrow I have to unload a heavy air conditioner to put in my mom's room. Right now energy is good. Loki greeted me when I was settled down.

After resting for a bit, Loki goes and lies down by himself. He keeps pretty much to himself unless he's excited to see me. He's excited whenever I've been away for a bit, and I talk all baby talk to him.

Right now I'm pretty chill. The excitement for resting from work has worn off, and now I'm just resting, drinking water. Not much to say.

[AnthroHeart]

Just had another moment of excitement after drinking my morning coffee. Doing laundry now. Going back to work tomorrow after being out since December. A little anxious, but a little excited about going back.

[Aloneness]

That's a gorgeous creature!
I hope it'll be an exiting day for you tomorrow.

[AnthroHeart]

I feel positive again right now. Going to watch Big Bang Theory in about 30 mins, which I always enjoy. Tomorrow I work from home, which is always nice. It's hard to explain how these moments of excitement feel. But they are usually short lived. I am back to work now, on a part-time basis for the first month. Then, full-time.

You're right Aloneness, that wolfy that I posted is a beauty.

[Jade]

It sounds like the light is finding its way in. It gets easier and easier to let the light in, like anything else, practice makes perfect! Good luck, Gem!!

[AnthroHeart]

It sounds like the light is finding its way in. It gets easier and easier to let the light in, like anything else, practice makes perfect! Good luck, Gem!!

These light filled moments are most welcome, particularly when they are in between suicidal feelings. But I wouldn't exactly say suicidal. More like I get images of me killing myself, but I don't have the impulse to act on it. I often think of quick ways to die.

Then the light comes in and I feel much better. Thank you for bringing that to my attention. I remember once in my life where I felt the unconditional love of Creator. It was overwhelming and I felt most unworthy. I hope to be able to experience that again sometime. When the light comes in, I feel much better. I guess it's normally stress of life and stress of work that get to me. The bad feeling I have are often at work.

[AnthroHeart]

I'm a little worried because I have a court date coming up for what I did, and I don't know what will happen.

Aww I see, tell us when it happens so we can send some positive energy your way then to support you.

My court date is set for October 10th at 9am CST. I could use some positive energy. I'm a little nervous about it. I hurt my baby, my wolfie, when my mind was not right. Hopefully my therapist can make it to testify as to my improvement, and that I've stayed on my meds, and have been able to return to work, and am working normally now.

[Raz]

You have my blessings Gemini. What ever hapens, you will be fine.

[AnthroHeart]

You have my blessings Gemini. What ever hapens, you will be fine.

I realize I am co-creator of my reality, and a part of the Infinite One. So I'll be going into this hearing with a bit of confidence. As a wanderer, I realize my true home is a higher density, and there's a part of me there. So this little court case won't really have much of an impact on my larger self. It's just another lesson. Let's hope I do not get upset during the hearing. It's in front of a judge as I'm aware, not a jury.

My baby has forgiven me, and I have forgiven myself already, since I was not in my right mind. Hopefully my lawyer is very helpful. I think I'll be in good hands. Thank you Raz. I agree that whatever happens, I'll be fine. We are all ultimately ok, according to Daddy Ra.