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[Melissa]

@ Parsons; Though I appreciate your input, my path has been quite different. I thought I was under some kind of cyber attack at first, which began over a year ago, it wasn't very loving (understatement!). Then I went offline and the humanoids appeared, one of them nearly attacked me physically and it was absolutely terrifying. Then the threatening phone calls, ufo's and whatnot. It's been quite a challenge to find love in these situations, as I've also had to deal with family members who aren't the most loving kind. Hence the weariness. It's been quite an adventure!

[Parsons]

I didn't realize you were experiencing anything like this, how odd... Perhaps it is both? Maybe you are experiencing the synchronicities/telepathic events on top of the other stuff? I'm not sure what to do or say about the cyber attack or other physical events.

[Unbound]

@ Parsons; Though I appreciate your input, my path has been quite different. I thought I was under some kind of cyber attack at first, which began over a year ago, it wasn't very loving (understatement!). Then I went offline and the humanoids appeared, one of them nearly attacked me physically and it was absolutely terrifying. Then the threatening phone calls, ufo's and whatnot. It's been quite a challenge to find love in these situations, as I've also had to deal with family members who aren't the most loving kind. Hence the weariness. It's been quite an adventure!

Sounds like you have had some pretty intense experiences. I have had a lot of crazy experiences that I don't really share either. Always welcome to hit me up for a chat if you ever need to vent or express anything.

[Melissa]

@Parsons, yes I do believe I've been experiencing both. Very odd indeed. Though looking back, I don't think it was a cyber attack, even if it felt that way at the time. I'm very stubborn and at the time I rejected all things even remotely spiritual, because I thought people were just using it to avoid the hopeless emptiness of life. Angry atheist galore lol. Anyway, all the events 'forced' me to shift my worldview quite a bit, to rely solely on faith and there were many times I felt my energy shifting almost instantly after requesting assistance. It also brought back a lot of memories about the 'mystical' experiences I've had as a child. So the connection was always there, life happened and I forgot about it for awhile I'm actually grateful for everything that's happened.

@Tanner, thanks deary! I appreciate the offer

[Phoenix]

I got this a few years ago. Looking back on it I think that when we are pushing too hard to improve/ seek, we get a bit of a strong mirror of this.

[Melissa]

That makes sense but I was just minding my own business at the time. As in; not seeking/improving.

[Phoenix]

OK.

Another idea may be showing you others are a reflection of you and there is something you can learn from this.

Another idea is to have a look at astrology, I'd guess at Neptune's transit but it could be anything. (Neptune set off my situation a few years ago. It creates an ongoing 'fog' until some sort of spiritual clarity is reached) I have found a transit out in the real world is more of a problem if you have somehow buried the archetype inside yourself. But that is what I have personally found for me.

[caycegal]

Dear Melissa,

I remember being/feeling trapped for a long time (years) as I continued to pray and meditate. I think to some extent I was burning up karma. Also, I finally was able to begin visualizing an open window with sun shining through. I think that simple visualization had a profound effect. Soon after that I was able to break my usual pattern and go join what I will call a spiritual support group (for me it was actually a codependents anonymous group, but I think any kind of spiritual support group might have worked.) In that group I made a resolution to share one true thing about myself and my life each week. I stayed with the group (in different locations) for several years. I was profoundly changed. In other words, for me the effort to change my life by lonely prayer and mediation did not work. I had to go out and find like minded people to be with on a regular basis, and this for some reason made all the difference. Most spiritual teachers say that the energy of two or more joined together is profoundly more powerful that the energy of one of us in this earth plane. (Might not be the case with realized spiritual masters such as Jesus or Buddha.)

[Melissa]

Thanks for sharing

What makes me feel 'trapped' is that I don't really know what I want to do with this life. My brain tends to overflow with all kinds of ideas but when I zoom in on a concept and think about it more deeply the whole idea seems hilarious because sometimes it takes me all day to decide whether or not I should take a shower, or if I decide to take a shower I might end up doing something completely different because I got distracted somewhere along the way and forget about the whole shower. Which, in conclusion, makes me feel like I don't have a purpose. However, after nearly a year of fulltime non-doing/inner-work I'm quite eager to DO something that makes my heart/mind go whoohoo.

[isis]

Thanks for sharing

What makes me feel 'trapped' is that I don't really know what I want to do with this life. My brain tends to overflow with all kinds of ideas but when I zoom in on a concept and think about it more deeply the whole idea seems hilarious because sometimes it takes me all day to decide whether or not I should take a shower, or if I decide to take a shower I might end up doing something completely different because I got distracted somewhere along the way and forget about the whole shower. Which, in conclusion, makes me feel like I don't have a purpose. However, after nearly a year of fulltime non-doing/inner-work I'm quite eager to DO something that makes my heart/mind go whoohoo.

[Melissa]

[We are God]

Meditation does not have to be inactivity. In fact, inactivity is impossible. As long as you are alive, you are breathing, which is doing something. Walking can be a meditation, painting, dancing, anything, can be meditation. It matters not what you do, it matters only how you do it. The only thing of any importance is the way it's done.

As an artist, I care not about the finished product. The finished piece is not the art, the art is in the process. The finished piece is nothing but an artifact of the art that once was. Do you understand?

What I would recommend for you is mindfulness practice.

Just be aware. Thoughts will come and go, there is no need to react to them, just notice them. Sensations, likewise, come and go. Don't react to them, just continue being aware.

I am not suggesting to do nothing, but rather to bring this mindfulness into all that you do.

This, as I have found, is the most efficient way to break habits. The trick is to not fight the habit, but simply to recognize it. This will allow it to solve itself, it will dissolve on its own because you're no longer feeding it, you're just being cognizant.

This is my advice, but understand: only you can discern that which is best for you.

Hope I've been helpful.

[isis]

[Parsons]

Thanks for sharing

What makes me feel 'trapped' is that I don't really know what I want to do with this life. My brain tends to overflow with all kinds of ideas but when I zoom in on a concept and think about it more deeply the whole idea seems hilarious because sometimes it takes me all day to decide whether or not I should take a shower, or if I decide to take a shower I might end up doing something completely different because I got distracted somewhere along the way and forget about the whole shower. Which, in conclusion, makes me feel like I don't have a purpose. However, after nearly a year of fulltime non-doing/inner-work I'm quite eager to DO something that makes my heart/mind go whoohoo.

While our experiences may differ greatly, I see a great deal of similarities between us. I also used to have a tendency to agonize over the most efficient solution to the seemingly most mundane tasks and I am still currently easily distracted. I also felt like I didn't have a purpose and was desperately seeking it.

[We are God]

Our purpose is to be here. As far as what are you here to do, that wasn't necessarily decided by your contract. Maybe you choose to become an artist and to serve in that fashion, or maybe a teacher, or what have you. It's up to you. It doesn't have to be anything extravagant, even just raising a child is a form of service. What is it that draws you? What attracts you? What motivates you? What is it that you enjoy?

[isis]

i don't think one can get around one's purpose. i think we're programs in a matrix/illusion that can only do what we're programmed/fated to do.

i think purpose is always right in front of your face...that it's w/e u may find yourself doing...if u find yourself spending all day doing nothing but debating on whether or not to shower then that's nothing but u fulfilling your current purpose so good job.



The Keymaker: We do only what we're meant to do.



The Oracle: [to Neo] We are all here to do what we are all here to do...

[xise]

i think we're programs in a matrix/illusion that can only do what we're programmed/fated to do....

What about free will?

[isis]

i think we're programs in a matrix/illusion that can only do what we're programmed/fated to do....

What about free will?

i think there's only one (infinite) creator, only 1 identity, so i think nothing can be that is not my will.

"The seeming contradictions of determinism and free will melt away when it is accepted that there is such a thing as true simultaneity."

[xise]

i think we're programs in a matrix/illusion that can only do what we're programmed/fated to do....

What about free will?

i think there's only one (infinite) creator, only 1 identity, so i think nothing can be that is not my will.

"The seeming contradictions of determinism and free will melt away when it is accepted that there is such a thing as true simultaneity."

Does my free will decision to disregard what I'm programmed to do (assumed we can figure out what someone's program/fate is) and follow a completely different path exist as part of the Creator's will?

[isis]

i think we're programs in a matrix/illusion that can only do what we're programmed/fated to do....

What about free will?

i think there's only one (infinite) creator, only 1 identity, so i think nothing can be that is not my will.

"The seeming contradictions of determinism and free will melt away when it is accepted that there is such a thing as true simultaneity."

Does my free will decision to disregard what I'm programmed to do (assumed we can figure out what someone's program/fate is) and follow a completely different path exist as part of the Creator's will?

i don't think u can disregard what u're programmed to do...i think u can think u can though. i think your will is the creator's will & vice versa.

[Jeremy]

i think we're programs in a matrix/illusion that can only do what we're programmed/fated to do....

What about free will?

i think there's only one (infinite) creator, only 1 identity, so i think nothing can be that is not my will.

"The seeming contradictions of determinism and free will melt away when it is accepted that there is such a thing as true simultaneity."

Does my free will decision to disregard what I'm programmed to do (assumed we can figure out what someone's program/fate is) and follow a completely different path exist as part of the Creator's will?

I think that's putting a little too much emphasis on the creator just as Christianity does ie: gods plan and disregarding your higher selfs preincarnational plan. Remember that there are infinite paths created so that if one veers off of one, another if proposed. If that one isn't maintained then another, etc.

To say it's the creators will gives it control in a sense when it is more of a backseat driver in a sense. It experiences through us by experiencing our decisions based upon the free will that has been given. To say that it has willed us to do anything would be an infringement upon the very free will that enables us to make such decisions.

[ScottK]

Does my free will decision to disregard what I'm programmed to do (assumed we can figure out what someone's program/fate is) and follow a completely different path exist as part of the Creator's will?

You always have free will. All possibilities exist, some more likely than others. But it's also quite likely you'll *want* to do whatever it is. (edit: think black and white dress)

Of course, the problem is that you may not ever know what you came here to do or what you were programmed to do until after you do it.

And you may have incarnated to do something really important 30 years from now, and you are just being trained throughout your life to get to that point. Who the heck knows.

We were not meant to know. We are all on a meandering journey - the more everyone follows their passions and the more fun we have in the process, probably the better off we'll all end up, but still, who knows..

The whole setup of the creation is pretty amazing and humbling to me. It makes me not want to think too hard about it since it's just an amazing illusion that we will never fully understand. I'd rather just play my part in it than think about the mechanics of it. Someone went to a lot of trouble to build and give us this teaching tool..

[Melissa]

And if what you *want* seems utterly impossible? That has always been my issue. Yesterday I sat talking with a friend, about our dreams, it was very inspiring and frustrating at the same time. As all these ideas generate so much energy that I often feel like I'm about to explode. Aaaaah! :p

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Well, perhaps not impossible but endlessly far from where I am now.

[KMcNay]

I mean, what's really going on? Someone care to explain? I've talked about it before, how every time I'm on here it's like people are reading my mind or coincidentally talk about something that just occurred. Or, repeat a conversation I'd just had.
I'm not paranoid as it doesn't scare me anymore but I'd like to know why this is happening?

Melissa, I read through the thread and from my limited perspective and I'm not certain I can add anything use to me. However, it appears, to me anyway, that you have lots of different things going on. As far as synchronicity goes, my Native American Cherokee Relations call it the "Dream Weave" where Jung says the collective unconscious lives and everything merges together and runs into everyone else's unconscious to surface when appropriate to their conscious mind. After all, this is a forum for the "Laws of One". I know that when I get an idea that I haven't heard anyone else talking about that I'm going to start hearing about it soon.

As far as the other issues go; you may have energetic attachments (clear your chakras and body). You may be to psychicly open at times without realizing it where cyber attacks can occur (clear our chakras and body and ground yourself).

As far as manifesting goes, well I manifest pretty well, but sometimes it is really difficult and don't I know it. For me frustration, patience, tiredness, resentment or anger is somtimes present and creates static in the manifesting phone call. I'm in the middle of this at the moment (clear chakras and body energy, ground, center, breath, and meditate).

Have you ever lifted weights? Daily life feels like that for me quite often - I have keep my body in line, breath at the right time, concentrate and gut through the lift and then have patience and control enough to lower the weights slowly. That's what yesterday at work felt like for me.

I agree about feeling tired and it isn't always easy! I'm grateful for when it is.

[caycegal]

Sometimes action is required. Even voluneer work can be life-saving for a person who needs structure.

[Parsons]

"Fate" and free will are not mutually exclusive:

Consider the shopper entering the store to purchase food with which to furnish the table for the time period you call a week. Some stores have some items, others a variant set of offerings. We speak of these possibility/probability vortices when asked with the understanding that such are as a can, jar, or portion of goods in your store.

It is unknown to us as we scan your time/space whether your peoples will shop hither or yon. We can only name some of the items available for the choosing. The, shall we say, record which the one you call Edgar read from is useful in that same manner. There is less knowledge in this material of other possibility/probability vortices and more attention paid to the strongest vortex. We see the same vortex but also see many others. Edgar’s material could be likened unto one hundred boxes of your cold cereal, another vortex likened unto three, or six, or fifty of another product which is eaten by your peoples for breakfast. That you will breakfast is close to certain. The menu is your own choosing.

[Billy]

I had a pretty awesome day yesterday for no apparent reason. I felt as if peaceful, cosmic energy was flowing through me. Wonder why it can't always be like that.

[Melissa]

I had a pretty awesome day yesterday for no apparent reason. I felt as if peaceful, cosmic energy was flowing through me. Wonder why it can't always be like that.

It's nice to read you've had an awesome day I think you wouldn't experience the awesomeness of it if every day was as such.

[Rusalka]

It seems it's your emotional response to the synchronicity's where you feel they are 'far out weird' or you feel as though they are imprisoning you. A few years back i didn't know of synchronicity's and i began to see the number 33 everywhere this lasted for two years almost solidly. At first I was like what the f*** is happening but now when i see a 33 i just laugh because i understand what it is. Synchronicity's have a habit of popping up in strange and weird ways because they stick in the memory more and I believe this helps the synchronicity to talk to the unconscious mind directly so to speak. If it's any constellation I have been experiencing similar things where I think something and someone then says it out loud or I was singing a song in my head and my girlfriend started singing it. The veil is thinning and this could well be the cause of these experiences what's interesting is if they continue to increase to the extent where you know what someone is thinking and they know what you are thinking and you just think conversations and think emotions to explain things to each other. Now that would be rad !

Hah, I think that is already happening! The more you tune in, the more you, I don't know, share the field of awareness? I am clairsentient (which scared the living daylights out of me when I discovered that some emotions I feel are not mine). Recently I started sometimes picking up on people's thoughts. At first I thought I was imagining things. But the other day we were playing poker and it has occurred to me to propose a new little variety, a new game. I said nothing to nobody and before I spoke my friend suggested exactly the same new game. I nearly fell off the chair! ;-)))

I think more and more people are having this kind of experiences but they deny it to themselves because it feels threatening. It defies the current scientific paradigm too much.

So, I guess, we need to take it easy. It is bound to be scary to have experiences you shouldn't have according to the current paradigm...

Let's share more of them, it helps to hear others talk about their experiences. At least you stop fearing you've gone crazy ;-)

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It's driving me absolutely insane that I still don't know what's going on.

Maybe you're trying too hard to figure out? Try to let go of wanting to figure it out and just watch what is happening... Just contemplate it.

You know the typical situation when you stop caring about something and it is then when things fall into place.

Hope it all goes well for you x

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As an artist, I care not about the finished product. The finished piece is not the art, the art is in the process. The finished piece is nothing but an artifact of the art that once was.

Brilliant! Non-resistance applied. One can apply this to life in general.

I find that when I really get un-attached, life flows and stuff gets easy. I get things done while I'm having fun rather than stress about them.

Another thing I would suggest, Melissa, if you want to find out what you want to do is ask yourself at least once a day "What would I like to do NOW?" and do it for, say, an hour. This way you will develop a deep connection with your Self. The trick is to do EXACTLY what the little voice says - whether it's sleep. hoover, go out, eat junk or write a story. More details here http://artbutterflycoaching.com/methods/...-practice/

I came up with this practice by accident in a dark moment of my life. I lead me to discover and refine the form of a profession I adore, move to a gorgeous place, start a business, start making art and hear my inuition/ inner guidance better. Seems like not much but it is magic - and very feminine and pleasant, too! xx

[Melissa]

Thanks Rusalka It's very inspiring to read about your life because it entails just about everything I've ever dreamed of doing. I've had a more relaxed couple of days and enjoyed doing seemingly mundane chores, which is nice. There's a lot of stuff going on at the moment but I can't really do anything about it, except managing my thoughts/feelings. Well, that's like a full time job already

How did you go about starting your own business?