Missing Person

[AnthroHeart]

What sent me over the edge in the past was getting myself super emotionally charged with different areas. I became obscessed with anthros and that caused me to psychologically break down. I once strove to feel Creator's love in my heart, and I was pushing very hard, putting myself through a lot of stress. When I did feel love for a few seconds I pushed even harder, and I just couldn't handle it.

So now, I don't subject myself to extreme stimuli now. I take it easy, and use a lot of Reiki. If I dwell too much on negative thoughts it's easy to get stuck in those patterns which pull me downward. I also do not try to strive too much for positive experiences because I tend to also experience an equal and opposite negative experience to balance that out. So bad news is I can't try to feel Creator's love because then I get an equal amount of fear.