Why such a close affiliation with the sun?

[caycegal]

I'm not angry at Ra. I just don't know if they really exist. In the past, it could have been my own dark side that came out when I tried working with them, as it's mostly been terrifying. I don't even know if angels exist. All I can trust in is Reiki to help me, as it's comforted me.

Don't know if this has been mentioned on this thread:

My husband and I joke this way about our spiritual beliefs: I'm not worried about whether it's "true" (so-called). I like this story and I'm stickin' to it, because it's the story that makes me feel good. After a lot of years of living and studying, I still think it's okay to pick the story that speaks to my heart and gives me the ability to live a positive life. Let others argue about what's "true." I'm pretty sure it's all a kind of game invented by "God" (substitute whatever word works for you) for entertainment and companionship and the sheer thrill of creating and loving.

The complete solar eclipse earlier this week hit me hard. I didn't even know what hit me until I happened to hear about the eclipse a couple of days later. All I knew was that I was plunged into dealing with deep emotional issues, and my whole life felt out of control and chaotic. There was a lot of fear.

Things are starting to feel a lot better for me now. I hope for you, also. I don't think it matters what you believe in if your system of belief works for you.