Reverting to the orange ray

[Phoenix]

As I read that it seems my last message kind of upset the momentum slightly.

See... I have more of an aversion to being in positions of power and control. I much prefer to operate "behind the scenes" or "under the radar" and have little desire to control others. I thought maybe this was a yellow-ray blockage, but it seems like it is not..?

You know Tenet, I had exactly the same idea once, EXACTLY. But now I am less like that in the mind and am trying to move the rest of me into coherence. (Without fanaticism or ego.)

I think a lot about the differences between service to others and service to self. I think service to others do often claim attention, and don't work behind the scenes so much. When you meet them they are 'radiant' and give of themselves freely. (Which leans toward the other person/ people having attention on them.)

I am wondering whether there is something for me that relates to this area. I haven't been volunteering even though I have thought for a short while I should do so. Also, it seems that the negative polarity has effectively created worse blocks in this area for people at least in England, by rising school fees, so people can't get into higher education. Or get jobs.

"Corporate ladder" and elected influential political positions are, and correct me if I am wrong which I might be, more of a service to self oriented nature than service to others oriented? At least when you (general you, not personal you) are trying to climb that ladder, right? And in my thinking, in this kind of environment, you can not be honest...?

I haven't had much experience of work, a few years in a supermarket, nothing more, but having once read the comment section in a guardian article, some of what goes on in the corporate ladder sounds very STS. Firstly, in several organisations, the successes of the workers are claimed by those above them. Secondly, managers like to keep their good workers below them so they get the credit for their work, while promoting the bad workers so they don't have to take responsibility for them. Thirdly, the good workers fix problems before management become aware of them, while the bad workers make a massive fuss over a tiny problem they fix.

Anyway, I'm sure that is a feature of those self centered industries. Can't imagine you would get the same thing in an area such as nursing or teaching. Where the good workers patients survive and the bad workers do not. No amount of fuss over the tiny successes is going to help there. The patient is dead. The children don't know their arithmetic.

In regards to reverting to 'orange ray'. I wonder what sort of polarity drinking alcohol would be considered as, since drinking a lot of alcohol is I would think in almost all cases an orange ray behaviour, which disables yellow and green ray. I read that Bob Dylan himself couldn't write any music while he was consuming a lot of alcohol.