Aaron, it sounds like you've already done a lot of processing of this catalyst and are ready to let it go.
I have 3 suggestions:
1. Quit smoking weed for awhile, at least a few months, to clear your head. I got high every day during my teen years, then quit for awhile, then went back, and could no longer do it, because the doors of perception and been flung open and I was able to perceive entities at the periphery of my awareness when high. I realized that it made me more vulnerable. I am grateful for the years I did it - it was very beneficial - but I reached a point where it was counterproductive. I couldn't go back. At the very least, I suggest giving yourself a break from it for a good long while. Some psychics claim that it tears holes in the aura. I'm not sure if that's true, but if it is, you might be more vulnerable to entities because of the weed.
2. Hire a shaman. They can be very good at cutting connections and sending entities packing. Their work will hold only if the person has fully utilized the catalyst, which you appear to have done. I can offer a referral if you like - someone who works long-distance. Pm me if want the contact info.
3. You may have already addressed this, but the first thing that popped into my mind when I was praying for you was that you might still be carrying some guilt or shame over what now might seem like a foolish mistake. The key is to simultaneously acknowledge the lack of wisdom at the time, while forgiving yourself for it. (As opposed to brushing it off.) In other words, rather than focusing on your good intentions at the time, take a moment to delve into what now seems like an error in judgment, and fully confront it as such, while, at the same time, fully forgiving yourself for it. Forgiving yourself for having good intentions isn't the same as forgiving yourself for doing what you might now consider a mistake. The transformative power is in forgiving the part we're uncomfortable with. Just a suggestion!
Blessings to you!
Edit: I'm not saying that what you did was a 'foolish mistake.' It's not my place to judge that. I'm suggesting that you examine whether you might think it was a foolish mistake, and if so, confront that so it can be accepted, forgiven and transformed. We all make errors in judgment which seem fine at the time, until later when we realize the unexpected consequences of our actions. Then we tend to beat ourselves up over it, and it's that beating ourselves up that can attract the little nasties too. But pretending we didn't make an error in judgment, when deep down we really believe we did, isn't any better, because the belief is still there, though suppressed. Although ultimately, in the grand scheme of things, there are no mistakes, from our perspective there are indeed mistakes, and it's ok to acknowledge that, accept it, and forgive it. I've noticed that people in the New Age community often disavow any idea of a 'mistake' or any feelings of guilt, and it is that suppression that might actually attract more chains of karma (even to negative entities) than just acknowledging it.
So, if there is any value to what I'm saying, then you've taken a huge step in publicly acknowledging this.
I have 3 suggestions:
1. Quit smoking weed for awhile, at least a few months, to clear your head. I got high every day during my teen years, then quit for awhile, then went back, and could no longer do it, because the doors of perception and been flung open and I was able to perceive entities at the periphery of my awareness when high. I realized that it made me more vulnerable. I am grateful for the years I did it - it was very beneficial - but I reached a point where it was counterproductive. I couldn't go back. At the very least, I suggest giving yourself a break from it for a good long while. Some psychics claim that it tears holes in the aura. I'm not sure if that's true, but if it is, you might be more vulnerable to entities because of the weed.
2. Hire a shaman. They can be very good at cutting connections and sending entities packing. Their work will hold only if the person has fully utilized the catalyst, which you appear to have done. I can offer a referral if you like - someone who works long-distance. Pm me if want the contact info.
3. You may have already addressed this, but the first thing that popped into my mind when I was praying for you was that you might still be carrying some guilt or shame over what now might seem like a foolish mistake. The key is to simultaneously acknowledge the lack of wisdom at the time, while forgiving yourself for it. (As opposed to brushing it off.) In other words, rather than focusing on your good intentions at the time, take a moment to delve into what now seems like an error in judgment, and fully confront it as such, while, at the same time, fully forgiving yourself for it. Forgiving yourself for having good intentions isn't the same as forgiving yourself for doing what you might now consider a mistake. The transformative power is in forgiving the part we're uncomfortable with. Just a suggestion!
Blessings to you!
Edit: I'm not saying that what you did was a 'foolish mistake.' It's not my place to judge that. I'm suggesting that you examine whether you might think it was a foolish mistake, and if so, confront that so it can be accepted, forgiven and transformed. We all make errors in judgment which seem fine at the time, until later when we realize the unexpected consequences of our actions. Then we tend to beat ourselves up over it, and it's that beating ourselves up that can attract the little nasties too. But pretending we didn't make an error in judgment, when deep down we really believe we did, isn't any better, because the belief is still there, though suppressed. Although ultimately, in the grand scheme of things, there are no mistakes, from our perspective there are indeed mistakes, and it's ok to acknowledge that, accept it, and forgive it. I've noticed that people in the New Age community often disavow any idea of a 'mistake' or any feelings of guilt, and it is that suppression that might actually attract more chains of karma (even to negative entities) than just acknowledging it.
So, if there is any value to what I'm saying, then you've taken a huge step in publicly acknowledging this.
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