Homosexuality

[Phoenix]

Hey, jumped in late.

To my mind, it seems that so much of 'where we live' is an energy blockage that it's difficult to really make any judgements. Another relationship pointed out as less than perfect is marriage itself.

I have a cousin who I have often suspected is homosexual. Just a lot of little things have made me think that. The 'I love that picture' which is ever so slightly homoerotic. The jokes that are way too far gone and make a person ask 'how did you ever get that far?' Quite a few other little signs.

I felt the other day when he was sitting next to me that I wanted to ask him directly, but I didn't. We have a good connection but whenever I either a) think of something to say about girls or b) simply ask directly in the absence of a. But I don't. The whole things a tightrope. So I feel I can't talk to him in a genuine way if I have to deliberately 'disconnect' at certain moments.

Which is a shame, because he's family and the lost connection, whatever way he leans, seems so senseless.