01-08-2013, 02:18 AM
Hi. I am going through something and was wondering if anyone could offer something that might help me.
I fell in love with a girl. I recently found out she is pregnant and she doesn't want our child. She also said she doesn't love me anymore.
More than anything in the world I want my baby, but I understand she isn't ready and I wouldn't want her to do anything she doesn't want to do. I offered to take our baby and raise our child by myself, not requiring child support or anything on her part, but she declined, as the physical part of being pregnant scares her. All of that said, she is aborting my child tomorrow and doesn't want me to be there during and possibly after.
I have accepted it as the reality, and am trying to get over it, but it is so hard. I want so bad to have this baby in my life. I'm ready. I know this soul chose me as its father for this incarnation, and I will always be its father. This soul will always remain in my heart. I just feel like such a failure and so foolish to have let this happen with someone I knew wasn't ready. I feel like a father and now I know my baby is going to die tomorrow.
I'm just so angry at myself. And so full of sorrow and sadness and grief. Sometimes its all I can do to not break down in the middle of the street when I'm walking. I've never been like this in my life before, but now its my reality. I am trying so hard to figure out why this has happened and what is the lesson to learn here...
I'm not looking for advice on what to do. I am looking for advice for dealing with extreme sadness and sorrow and grief. I've never felt anything like this before.
PS: Save the sympathy, its not welcome here.
I fell in love with a girl. I recently found out she is pregnant and she doesn't want our child. She also said she doesn't love me anymore.
More than anything in the world I want my baby, but I understand she isn't ready and I wouldn't want her to do anything she doesn't want to do. I offered to take our baby and raise our child by myself, not requiring child support or anything on her part, but she declined, as the physical part of being pregnant scares her. All of that said, she is aborting my child tomorrow and doesn't want me to be there during and possibly after.
I have accepted it as the reality, and am trying to get over it, but it is so hard. I want so bad to have this baby in my life. I'm ready. I know this soul chose me as its father for this incarnation, and I will always be its father. This soul will always remain in my heart. I just feel like such a failure and so foolish to have let this happen with someone I knew wasn't ready. I feel like a father and now I know my baby is going to die tomorrow.
I'm just so angry at myself. And so full of sorrow and sadness and grief. Sometimes its all I can do to not break down in the middle of the street when I'm walking. I've never been like this in my life before, but now its my reality. I am trying so hard to figure out why this has happened and what is the lesson to learn here...
I'm not looking for advice on what to do. I am looking for advice for dealing with extreme sadness and sorrow and grief. I've never felt anything like this before.
PS: Save the sympathy, its not welcome here.