do u believe in the goodness of the creator

[norral]

well ive seen a few things in my time. i lived thru the civil rights movement. i saw people shot in the back in their own driveway by the kkk because they were helping people to get the right to vote. the stinking right to vote . killed in their own driveway shot in the back by cowards. i saw signs that said colored only on water fountains. i saw both kennedys, king, malcolm x killed because they stood up to the system. i saw the vietnam war where vietnamese kids were shot in the face by invading american forces, where women were gang raped by american troops who called the people gooks . in their own land they had the arrogance to call the people who lived their gooks. ive seen all of these trumped up wars that have made the elite rich while kids lose their limbs and lose their minds and come back damaged goods. i've seen all the lies and the injustices and the b.s. that has been perpertrated on the american people . we live in a very very large lie ha ha. except its not funny. ive had police walk up to me from a 1/2 mile away and ask me what i am doing on a public beach because i wasnt the right skin color.
so ive seen enuf injustice , cruelty , lies and total b.s. in my 65 years to come to the conclusion that there is a lot of injustice that takes place on this orb. i see the elite rich steal trillions and trillions of dollars and then tell the elderly they need to take a cut in their social security checks ha ha. except its not funny. so there are reasons why i feel how can i put this , frustrated with the amazingly slow movement towards equality.
and yet i also see the beauty. i see the beauty in people , in this planet and usually the beauty that i see in people comes from average everyday people going about their lives with dignity compassion and caring. and that gives me hope. hope so that i am not bitter. but i am also not a dead ember thats for sure. the day i lose my passion about justice is the day u can just call me dead.
and now for whatever reason even though i see thru the lie, and believe me i most certainly do see thru the lie that we call reality, for whatever reason i feel as though i can let all this stuff go and just trust in the creator and know that the creator is guiding my steps in the right direction. and because of all the injustices and horrors that i have seen on this planet i feel fearless. i will be dipped upside down in a pile of it if i am going to live a life of fear. why should i. there is no guile in me. i have nothing to fear and nothing to hide in my life. i only have one face and my heart is pretty easy to read. just read my words and u will know my heart. if the lying elite can live lives of luxury then the rest of us most certainly deserve to thats for sure.

so bottom line i have reason to doubt the good intentions of the creator and yet at this time i feel a sense of trust and the realization that i am the master of my own fate and that as i continue on this path of open heartedness the wind will be at my back

norral