Had to start posting now, I know how empty she is, that's how I somehow managed to make love to her when her goal was lust, It broke my heart so much, from the moment we met, I saw her conduct with other guys, and I KNEW she didn't know a damn thing about love, than we talked about her parents, her dad, ex bfs, it just broke my heart so bad for her, -tearing- I knew it was going to be a horrible task "converting" her, and I hope to god I didn't infringe too much upon her free will, but she is starting to understand a little, she has had glimpses of it..
Thank you for reminding me to forgive her, I do want that, for both of us. I need to help her, so I feel, and she definitely can help me. I was getting jealous as I read all of those thoughtful posts to pere, something I want to feel bad about, but realize maybe I should just accept it for once. No guilt this time.. either way you have my apologies! I have a lot of love for both of you, hearing your stories, it has truly opened my heart
I'd like to thank ya again monica, some very deep stuff, the part where you said "needless to say, I didn't take him back" kinda dismantled my new found feelings of love and forgiveness, I don't want to separate myself from this person, I feel like she's here for a reason. I don't feel like I've passed the test yet, there is much work to be done. I am pretty prone to suggestion it seems! or maybe that's just how things are for me when my emotional state isn't blocked off.
I never thought much about the dopamine, bigger higher dose aspect of this before, that's food for thought, thank you!
Wow, I couldn't have imagine something like that charlie.. thanks for sharing!
Thank you for reminding me to forgive her, I do want that, for both of us. I need to help her, so I feel, and she definitely can help me. I was getting jealous as I read all of those thoughtful posts to pere, something I want to feel bad about, but realize maybe I should just accept it for once. No guilt this time.. either way you have my apologies! I have a lot of love for both of you, hearing your stories, it has truly opened my heart
I'd like to thank ya again monica, some very deep stuff, the part where you said "needless to say, I didn't take him back" kinda dismantled my new found feelings of love and forgiveness, I don't want to separate myself from this person, I feel like she's here for a reason. I don't feel like I've passed the test yet, there is much work to be done. I am pretty prone to suggestion it seems! or maybe that's just how things are for me when my emotional state isn't blocked off.
I never thought much about the dopamine, bigger higher dose aspect of this before, that's food for thought, thank you!
Wow, I couldn't have imagine something like that charlie.. thanks for sharing!
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