One negative/upsetting aspect of the awakening process

[Brittany]

Please forgive the rather large quote, but I asked this question to Quo at a meditation in 2010. These words have stuck with me over the following years, and seem relevant to your thoughts. Indeed the weariness has only grown, though re-reading these words was very encouraging to me. They mean much more now than they did at the time.

Questioner: Q’uo, not only I but numerous people I’ve talked to, especially among the spiritual seekers, have talked about feeling very tired, very drained on all levels lately and [experiencing] an increasing, growing sense of weariness and exhaustion. I’ve wondered if that had anything to do with the coming harvest and the shifting energies.

Q'uo: We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my sister. My sister, the weariness which spiritual seekers feel at this time is indeed an artifact of the changing energy at the waning of light in third density and the dawning of light in fourth density. Fourth-density light more and more interpenetrates third-density light and, as we said in response to an earlier query, this light is loaded with information. It is the light of love and understanding and the burden of information that it carries is heavy. It carries more truth than third-density light. It carries more truth than third density can use comfortably. This means that those who are already awake and already seeking are now seeking under more of a strain than they might have, say, thirty or forty years ago even, and certainly more than one hundred or two hundred years ago.

There are truths which are inconvenient for third-density entities to behold, largely having to do with the interconnectedness of all being and the unity of all being, so that the deeds done by another are the deeds done by the self. That which seems repugnant to the self, yet is done by another, somehow feels as though it has been done by the self. And this, my sister, is because there is a great deal of truth in the unity of all beings.

There is no truth [to saying] that one entity is responsible for the choices of another. You are not guilty because someone else has committed murder. However, you are part of the tribe of humankind and you carry the burden of the behavior and the choices of humankind. It creates of the universe a hall of mirrors for the spiritual seeker on Planet Earth today, so that the seeker is bumping up against truth. And often that truth is not what one wants to see. It is not all tied up in a pretty bow. It is not all positive. It does not seem to be fair; that is, it does not seem to be beautiful or true or just or equitable. And yet you see all these things because you are being bombarded constantly by fourth-density light.

So, yes, there is every reason to feel more tired than usual, to be weary with the world’s heavy energies. And yet you came here to serve. This is the moment for which you sacrificed so much. Now you are here. Now you are on the ground. Now you are in the midst of the fire, and it certainly is wearying. Yet comfort yourself with the knowledge that you did not come here to fix things. You came here to love things—to love yourself and to love those around you, to love all of the tribe of humankind and, above all, to love the Creator.

Therefore, it’s all right to feel weary. One feels weary at sundown. And it is truly sundown for your planet and your people. At the end of this incarnation, each of you shall walk the steps of light. This is your last incarnation upon this particular planet in this particular environment. Consequently, rejoice in your time, however wearying it may seem. You are in the place you sacrificed comfort and family and the remembrance of how things truly are, [so that you could] serve and to learn. And you are serving, my sister and you are learning. And so are all of those who seek at this time.

May we answer you further? We are those of Q’uo.

Questioner: I would just ask that as the harvest comes to pass in the next coming years and the Earth is completely in fourth-density light, will there be a chance of seeing this tiredness lifting, or is it likely something that will endure to the end of the incarnation?

Carla: Jim, would you repeat that?

Jim: She’s asking if this tiredness that she’s feeling is something that will endure to the end of the incarnation.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my sister, thanks to the one known as Jim who enabled this instrument’s ears to work.

My sister, you will find this weariness to be not only permanent but that which builds upon itself. It is not too much to carry, but it is a weariness that cannot be completely renewed to lack of weariness by sleep or rest. It is an incarnational situation. Consequently, we encourage you to learn to manage it, to manage your energy so that when you spend your energy, it is spent well. There are always strategies when one has a physical disability, for instance, where one changes one’s habits in order to get the most done with the least physical movement. The same holds true for the inner world.

Energy expenditure, especially when it is devoted to the energies of self-judgment, self-criticism and a lack of self-forgiveness, are energies that are unwisely spent. Once those energies are dedicated to self-judgment and related energies, those energies are no longer free to be used for love’s service. Consequently, although it may seem difficult to do at first, we encourage you at all times to come from a place of being self-forgiven, in full knowledge of your worth and with no tendency towards self criticism.

It is not that we would suggest that you stop noticing when you make errors. Self-perceived errors are helpful and mistakes are the way people learn, whatever their field of study. However, it is useless to become angry at the self because one has added two and two and gotten five. It is only necessary to note down that two and two equal four and to move from that premise in the future.

The energy expenditures that you are called to are those of love. That is why you came and that is why you remain. You are not yet done loving this planet and its people. Consequently, waste no time in judgment on yourself or on others but only spend your energy on the inner planes for those purposes of dedicating all that you are and all that you have to the service of the one Creator; to being that entity of love that you intended to be when you chose to come here.

May we answer you further, my sister? We are those of Q’uo.