Facing the Shadow

[Ankh]

I don't remember reading in Book 1 anything about clearing the blockages. This is promising. Can you offer any more pointers?

You have a certain experience, which is feeling repulsion and at the same time having an erection when viewing certain images, or imagining certain situations in your mind. Ra said that:

Each experience will need to be observed, experienced, balanced, accepted, and seated within the individual. As the entity grows in self-acceptance and awareness of catalyst the location of the comfortable seating of these experiences will rise to the new true-color entity. The experience, whatever it may be, will be seated in red ray and considered as to its survival content and so forth.

Each experience will be sequentially understood by the growing and seeking mind/body/spirit complex in terms of survival, then in terms of personal identity, then in terms of social relations, then in terms of universal love, then in terms of how the experience may beget free communication, then in terms of how the experience may be linked to universal energies, and finally in terms of the sacramental nature of each experience.

So, observe this experience, and then do the balance work. You already have two opposites within your mind of this experience: repulsion and erection/excitement. Experience them both, and try to understand them. See what energy center or centers are affected, like Ra put it here:

The thoughts of an entity, its feelings or emotions, and least of all its behavior are the signposts for the teaching/learning of self by self. In the analysis of one’s experiences of a diurnal cycle an entity may assess what it considers to be inappropriate thoughts, behaviors, feelings, and emotions.

In examining these inappropriate activities of mind, body, and spirit complexes the entity may then place these distortions in the proper vibrational ray and thus see where work is needed.

Then, when you are comfortable with the above, move on into the accepting phase, by accepting the self, as it is, and your experience. Both feeling repulsion and excitement. Here is one thread where we recently discussed balancing and accepting work with the catalyst:

Acceptance and balancing

And as Ra said:

All things are acceptable in the proper time for each entity, and in experiencing, in understanding, in accepting, in then sharing with other-selves, the appropriate description shall be moving away from distortions of one kind to distortions of another which may be more consonant with the Law of One.

It is, shall we say, a shortcut to simply ignore or overcome any desire. It must instead be understood and accepted. This takes patience and experience which can be analyzed with care, with compassion for self and for other-self.