Facing the Shadow

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That is a great reminder. "Resist nothing, experience everything." At least that is what I understand because the wording difficult for me to understand completely. Also that's a very terrifying idea in this case. If I let myself indulge in those negative appetites, I think I will go insane, or distort myself further down into being someone I don't want to become. What if I succumb and they take me over?

I think it's a reasonable question and worth paying attention to. Ra said that it can be dangerous to attempt to activate the higher centers before balancing the lower ones, and they gave Hitler as an example of someone who went insane trying to do that. However, it seems like you're trying to accept and balance your lower centers, and that's always appropriate work. I recommend patience and only moving as fast as you feel you are able. These patterns may be the result of several lifetimes, and it may take a good deal of time to integrate them. It seems like you are making a really good start, though, and it could also happen in a moment. (Actually, it probably will happen in a moment, but as Ra says, "the seeking process ... ends in a moment, but who can know when an entity will open the gate to the present?") When I'm trying to remember to have patience, I try to remember Ra's statement that "[e]ach entity will receive the opportunity that each needs."

Hmm, so it seems like I may have blockages in the yellow and orange centers. I just read more on lawofone.info regarding them. I don't remember reading in Book 1 anything about clearing the blockages. This is promising. Can you offer any more pointers?

Ankh gave you some great ones; here are a couple of others.

84.19 ...It occurs to me that many statues or drawings of the one known as Lucifer or the Devil are shown with an erection. Is this a function of orange-ray blockage, and was this known in a minimal way by those who devised these statues and drawings?

Ra: I am Ra. There is, of course, much other distortion involved in a discussion of any mythic archetypical form. However, we may answer in the affirmative and note that you are perceptive.

102.11 Questioner: Now, there are two areas that the instrument can look to for curing this problem. I understand that the yellow-ray blockage problem has been completely repaired, shall I say. If this is not correct, could you make suggestions on that, please?

Ra: I am Ra. Each entity must, in order to completely unblock yellow ray, love all which are in relationship to it, with hope only of the other-selves’ joy, peace, and comfort.

I hope this is not offensive, or too personal; ignore this if it is. Did you experience intense fear when you faced your monsters? When I am submerged in negative experiences it is very difficult for me to remember that Love is the most powerful weapon in the world. I usually choose to fight back, to run, to do anything to move myself away from that experience. If you experience such a fear when you faced them, how can you realize that there are actually to options, to fight it or to embrace it? Was the fear not blinding for you? How can you not forget the light when the dark is all around you? Also, when you embrace it, will it consume you? That is the worst fear that I have. I fear that if I embrace it, I will become it!

Yes, the fear was intense and my heart was pounding. I'm not sure what made me want to turn around, but as soon as I did the monster evaporated and I felt like it does after a gentle rain -- fresh and peaceful.