05-24-2013, 05:04 AM
Right now, "my shadow self" as close as I can explain it to be, is a very devout christian woman with some of the same physical body complex distortions as I do. I'm strongly against christianity in my physical presence and I have a revulsion to some of the body complex distortions that she has. That being said. She and I have an immediate telepathic connection that borders on the subconcious.
I know she isnt "my shadow self" but I can see "my shadow self" in her. Meaning that my shadow self manifest through her, at times, just as my higher self can manifest through her or anyone else my higher self wants. At times.
She, to me, represents a lot of the things that I deny in myself. And I have been her co-worker for a year and a half.
She isn't a shadow self in person, but her willingness to serve allows her to be a instrument to my shadow self when I am in doubt about myself.
So. Can I ever directly and in full view, view my shadow self. Yes I can, but not while connected to this reality. But while in this reality, I can know that at times she may be my shadow self, and at times she is just an ordinary person.
But I do know that If, while she is in my presence. I start to push strongly against my own internal self / shadow self / hate myself. She will very quickly distance from me and go "odd" or "remote".
Unlike other people that I come across.
It is, due to the nature of reality, difficult to say for me at least where my shadow self begins and where the world ends, and vice versa. But I do know that I can maintain a push against my shadow self indefinently and it will never show and I will experience "only pleasant non revulsive things" or I can try to accept that everyone is beautiful, even the things I hate about myself when shown to me in the form of a another self.
So what is the shadow self. It is that one person in the whole cosmos that you most push away from you, and in circles of appearance similarity to that one person.
Usually it is the self.
I know she isnt "my shadow self" but I can see "my shadow self" in her. Meaning that my shadow self manifest through her, at times, just as my higher self can manifest through her or anyone else my higher self wants. At times.
She, to me, represents a lot of the things that I deny in myself. And I have been her co-worker for a year and a half.
She isn't a shadow self in person, but her willingness to serve allows her to be a instrument to my shadow self when I am in doubt about myself.
So. Can I ever directly and in full view, view my shadow self. Yes I can, but not while connected to this reality. But while in this reality, I can know that at times she may be my shadow self, and at times she is just an ordinary person.
But I do know that If, while she is in my presence. I start to push strongly against my own internal self / shadow self / hate myself. She will very quickly distance from me and go "odd" or "remote".
Unlike other people that I come across.
It is, due to the nature of reality, difficult to say for me at least where my shadow self begins and where the world ends, and vice versa. But I do know that I can maintain a push against my shadow self indefinently and it will never show and I will experience "only pleasant non revulsive things" or I can try to accept that everyone is beautiful, even the things I hate about myself when shown to me in the form of a another self.
So what is the shadow self. It is that one person in the whole cosmos that you most push away from you, and in circles of appearance similarity to that one person.
Usually it is the self.
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