03-10-2010, 04:56 PM
Well, I am back to being celibate. Wait... I have been celibate for nearly eight months. Ok, I'm back to being celibate without masturbation. Why? I have devoted myself to the the will of the One Creator. The first thing it desired of me was that I went to the store, bought some fresh and tasty ingredients, and made myself a veggie wrap, the first one I ever have had in my life, and the best tasting one I have ever had, I might add. Apparently the One Creator had a desire for Monterey Jack cheese in that wrap, because I have never had that desire... this was after a two day fast. Alright alright, I digress; back to celibacy and the m theory.
I desire to serve the One Creator's will, not that of my own, and have dedicated myself to being an instrument of its will. Thus I am allowing my ego's wants and desires to be removed. Although (I have noticed) this ape mind does indeed desire sexual release, I desire to move more into the indigo ray, and am thus saving my energies for that. I have always understood it is mind over matter, mind over the body, and this is another step. I've cut out coffee now too; the catalyst comes harder and faster, and I am coming to new understandings at a steady pace. I am now a vice-less man, the first time in this incarnate experience since I was a child.
I desire to serve the One Creator's will, not that of my own, and have dedicated myself to being an instrument of its will. Thus I am allowing my ego's wants and desires to be removed. Although (I have noticed) this ape mind does indeed desire sexual release, I desire to move more into the indigo ray, and am thus saving my energies for that. I have always understood it is mind over matter, mind over the body, and this is another step. I've cut out coffee now too; the catalyst comes harder and faster, and I am coming to new understandings at a steady pace. I am now a vice-less man, the first time in this incarnate experience since I was a child.