Why I think I have failed at bending spoons.

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That reminds me of Carl Roger's phenomenological field theory. The field is infinite, and we learn more about self thru each experience then attempt to integrate those aspects. If a blank piece of paper is the infinite field, and we draw a dot, that is what we experienced/made conscious. This dot can grow with new experience into an increasingly larger bubble. Sometimes a dot is drawn in a very remote place on a paper, which illuminates a part of self that is vastly different (that 'till this very moment I never really knew myself' experience). In order to integrate that outlier dot one must then expand the bubble thru-out the field towards the outlier.

I'm trying to understand the randomness here. Could you talk about that a bit more pls?