Sexual addiction! and Male-Female energy roles/energies

[Peregrinus]

I think I see it now. So, if I understand what you are saying correctly, it's not so much that the celibacy changes your fundamental personality, it is rather a mechanism to conserve spiritual energy that would normally be released in sexual activity. You can then consciously use this stored energy to effect healing through the indigo ray, the gateway to intelligent infinity. Please correct me if I am off-base, but if this is so I consider this to be a much better reason for celibacy than I have ever heard before. And rather selfless at that.

Your perception is indeed correct brother. To be the selfless instrument of the One Creator is what I hope may be the highest offering of myself I may make. What the One creator desires of me is therefore not my will, but its will. Healing ability will come, or not, if it is the One Creator's will for me. I simply strive to be of the purest intent.

This sounds very similar to some of the reasoning behind fasting, to transcend physicality and realize that you are ultimately a spiritual being in a material illusion. Clearly you have a very strong will and I hope that this aids you in this journey. I would wager that this catalyst will be quite difficult at times. For me, a total lack of sexual release led my mind to dwell more frequently on sex and crowded out my other thoughts. It sounds like you, on the other hand, are going to transmute those baser thoughts for a higher purpose. I salute the purity of your intent and wish you well in this endeavor.

The catalyst comes harder and faster, cutting to the bone when one makes the decision to become an instrument of the One Creator. Each day, since setting my intention, I go through far more catalyst than I used to, and because my ego is not in play (nearly as much), distilling this catalyst is coming to me easier. Clearly I am still have the bipedal ape mind, and I do understand/expect to have the continuing cycles of up/down as we must all experience in this illusion, but I have let go of expectation. I trust in the Father's will for me and choose to live in the moment, and oh how glorious that is becoming!

Just as an aside, it is my understanding that there are a number of drugs that unintentionally, and a few that INTENTIONALLY, reduce sexual desire in men. There is also surgical castration, which achieves the same thing.

Now, I'm not seriously suggesting that you or anyone use these methods, being that I am naturally averse to both surgery and manufactured drugs, but I'm wondering if you think it would be just as effective for the spiritual work you plan to do with celibacy? That is, is that same sexual energy available in a body that hormonally does not crave sex? Or is it more of a transmutation of desire itself that, if the desire were removed, would not allow the sexual energy to build in the first place?

Inherently some of the most sexually frustrated and depraved men in history have been eunuchs. I would believe this is because even if the physical aspect is removed, the red ray activity still permeates the physical world, and thus the body, heart, and mind of the physical vehicle. Personally I would not do anything to defile the One Creator's creation, this temple of it's beauty, and have not even vowed celibacy, for I believe as well that castration by any means is and would be an act of personal intent, not one of selfless transparent intent.

I am simply "being", using my heart, mind, and energy in as pure and highest intent as I can. Should the One Creator desire something other for me, I have no doubt it will resonate in me.

I just yesterday found myself in the right place, at at exactly the right time (three minutes earlier or later and I would have missed it), to experience a once in a lifetime event which will never again take place again in the same place, a place I rarely go and didn't need to go to... and presented to me, in my face as it were, was a purpose to which I may serve in a larger way. I thank my higher self and the One Creator for allowing me to have been given this opportunity, and I endeavour to serve to the best of my earthly abilities.