Viewing the Totality of the Past without any Pain?

[BrownEye]

Just have some jitters when I think of the future.
Like when I'm old and dying, whether that will be painful.

It is all a choice.

If I focus on charity up to the last day, my last day will be "charitable".

If I focus on suffering or negative experiences up to that day, most likely I will get my "wish".

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The focus of fear upon an object is still to wish upon that object.