You are THE one infinite creator.

[Adonai One]

Heh, you derive meaning from your existence by denying you are already the creator? Isn't that a little masochistic?

Would I deny the creator a chance to learn the lessons available through the veiled 3rd density experience? There is a reason that this aspect of myself is here in 3rd density, and I don't think its to spend my days pretending that I truly understand what it means to be one. And if any of us truly understood that, we would not be here. This is not the density of understanding, and yet the seeking is nonetheless a fruitful journey

Well, the first is rather impossible even if you try to see yourself as the creator in this moment. In fact, doing that very act will fulfill said goal.

There is nothing wrong with trying on new beliefs and theories like sets of clothes. I have found it's the best way to learn. There's nothing wrong about considering an idea and then throwing it away. One may find themselves stagnant if they are afraid of trying any new truths out of the fear of falsehood. This can be explored in the Catalyst of the Spirit.