to kill or not to kill? that is the question.

[Unbound]

I work in a restaurant where they serve crab and they keep live crabs in a trap for that reason. I have made it clear that I am willing to do any dirty work around the place, but I refuse to kill the crabs. This is not because I am scared or incapable, but because I have the choice of whether or not I am going to walk the talk of my higher awareness and in this situation it is my prerogative to make that choice and I have decided that although I will not kill the crabs, I do retrieve them from the traps and each time I bless them and thank them and offer a gateway for their spirit to evolve. For myself I don't have any belief I am sending them "somewhere better" but rather that by adding my consciousness to theirs they will be able to move on in their evolution more quickly.

I have been doing the practice when I eat meat to connect with the spirit of the animal and help to transmute it and carry it along the path of light, and then only very recently I discovered that is a Tibetan Buddhist practice. I am almost positive I was a Tibetan buddhist at one point aha

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I think ultimately, like everything, it's how we choose to perceive the situation that matters.

I am curious, what part matters, the choosing or the perception? What is the "mattering" in this case? Personal comfort and desire?