08-02-2013, 08:14 AM
(07-21-2013, 09:40 AM)Jeremy Wrote: My friend could see I was getting angry then all of a sudden, he said I turned into someone else and I started throwing this 250lbs man around like a rag doll to which he promptly stopped.
There is a reason alcohol used to be called 'spirits'. I went through the same experiences, at the point I black out, something else took over, something with a lot of energy to burn. Once I came to understand what was happening I quit drinking.
Your hatred for your wife is understandable. But, she may not even have been in control of herself to do what she did. And so, she may have been used as an instrument to teach you a lesson of a type.
There is no anger or hatred when we understand the reasons. In the physical the reasons are hidden from us, in order to force us to go through all of the emotional expressions.