to kill or not to kill? that is the question.

[Diana]

it's impossible not to exist in harmony, from my point of view.

I understand the above statement, but I'm not of that awareness. It's fine for those who can just "be" in peace and acceptance with all. I feel driven to evolve myself and actively participate in the visualization and creation of a better world. That is not to say that I do so by changing others. I do so by changing myself and focusing on the vision. I also keep myself "in the now" by communing with nature; and I have worked for myself most of my adult life alone, which is also a form of "in the now" meditation.

I often think of those who are so advanced they can be here and see everything--suffering and destruction--with equanimity. It's not that I blame ignorant humans (although I had to work very hard on that, and still do when I am not centered). It's that I am a creative being (artist, illustrator, writer) and it seems to be my nature to visualize, and visualizing a world I would resonate with is a better occupation for me than feeling deep sadness or anger at the way things currently are.

I have not advanced to the point where I can always be in the accepting now. Even driving to the store I go by properties where the horses are fenced into a dirt area with no shade (it can get over 120° here in the summer). They will sometimes be straining over the fencing to try and reach a branch of a tree on the other side with leaves. That is just one thing of so many that stab my heart. I can send these horses love all I want, and it does not build a shade cover over them. :-/