Fear and Self-service

[Gribbons]

Is there any form of service to self that isn't based on fear? I hear tones in my ears usually corresponding to thoughts I'm having either to that of the service to others (right) or service to self (left), or so I believe. My question is that, if you were to open to 4th dimensional thinking, fourth dimensional powers even, would learning how to develop those powers be a service to self? Even if I swear my soul would only use those powers for good?

I mean it would seem like it is a service to self. One must be attuned and disciplined to focus energy from either polarity. But service to self can help one be of service to others in the longer run, right? You have to know and train yourself before you can effectively help others. Am I wrong in this perception?

I try to live life seeing others as mirrors of myself, and treat them as I would like to be treated...but after a year's worth of research (with the L/L books being my first stepping stones into this brave new world) and seeing with my own eyes, magical, time-sensetive "coincidences" happen, I know it is all real. I'm polarizing to the service to others, and I can feel the confidence and strength of the Creator flowing through me at times, but I'm hesitant to further my psychic training if the mere development of these powers is...well, evil. Or is my perception of service-to-self being evil misinterpreted?

Thank you to whoever can help. Honestly, God bless.