I've been contemplating my spiritual growth quite a bit as of late, actually I suppose more than usual, but anyways I was thinking in the shower it might be a good idea to work on lying less. I find the shower and bath great places to kick it and think because of the isolation, and I can smoke up before I go (yes it's relevant!). The use of entheogens in my spiritual growth seems like a decent thing for me to do, and I believe they help provide the atmosphere for me where I can really delve into myself.
Anyways, back to the shower. So I was thinking that if I were to stop lying to my friends (and it's really more white lies than ... non-white lies? dunno :p with them), they wouldn't mind so much. If I were to stop lying to my parents, I'm inclined to think all hell would break loose. They are fundamentalist Christians and I'm a free spirited hooligan! Nah, but really, drugs and things outside of social & their religious norms are near blasphemy to them. So when I come home and get asked, for instance, "what did you guys do?," I might say we chilled and watched a movie rather than we smoked, drank, and watched a movie. The truth is still in there, but buried under deceit.
So if I were to try my best to stop lying altogether, a, for want of better word, s***storm would break loose. I don't particularly care so much about the backlash that I would get from them, but I worry about the spiritual and emotional trouble it would put them through. In the past I've broken both of my parents hearts from stuff like this, and have seen them go through it. I don't reeeaaaallly want to do it again, so...
I know everyone here has some experience with lying, and that we're all trying not to as much! So what is your experience with how you dance around the truth, or do you at all? What do you guys do to alleviate pain like I'm trying to do, all the while trying to polarize to STO, or in this case not depolarize too much if at all? Thoughts comments, and random things that have nothing to do with anything are all welcome
Really anything about lying is on-topic here.
P.S. I've thought that I may be the thing to provide them catalyst to polarize/grow, but it seems so cruel to hurt them when I can voluntarily save them from the pain.
Love and Light
Anyways, back to the shower. So I was thinking that if I were to stop lying to my friends (and it's really more white lies than ... non-white lies? dunno :p with them), they wouldn't mind so much. If I were to stop lying to my parents, I'm inclined to think all hell would break loose. They are fundamentalist Christians and I'm a free spirited hooligan! Nah, but really, drugs and things outside of social & their religious norms are near blasphemy to them. So when I come home and get asked, for instance, "what did you guys do?," I might say we chilled and watched a movie rather than we smoked, drank, and watched a movie. The truth is still in there, but buried under deceit.
So if I were to try my best to stop lying altogether, a, for want of better word, s***storm would break loose. I don't particularly care so much about the backlash that I would get from them, but I worry about the spiritual and emotional trouble it would put them through. In the past I've broken both of my parents hearts from stuff like this, and have seen them go through it. I don't reeeaaaallly want to do it again, so...
I know everyone here has some experience with lying, and that we're all trying not to as much! So what is your experience with how you dance around the truth, or do you at all? What do you guys do to alleviate pain like I'm trying to do, all the while trying to polarize to STO, or in this case not depolarize too much if at all? Thoughts comments, and random things that have nothing to do with anything are all welcome
Really anything about lying is on-topic here.P.S. I've thought that I may be the thing to provide them catalyst to polarize/grow, but it seems so cruel to hurt them when I can voluntarily save them from the pain.
Love and Light