Much love Brittany. I pray you that find the relief from the catalyst you face.
I just got back from out of town where from a bar crawl Halloween so I got to shower for the first time in 36 hours lol, but there is this dream I had I think Friday that involved you, orange ray, and a discussion of switching polarities. I'll post my thoughts shortly.
So the dream, I don't remember much of it, but in the dream, we were talking about self-acceptance orange ray issues, we briefly talked about how Walker was also dealing with similar orange (or maybe yellow ray issues). Here's where it gets blurry either in the dream I had the following train of thought OR I had it after waking up and thinking about the dream: I was thinkingabout a theory that when negatives switch polarity some of us have a great deal of difficulty with orange and yellow because we used them in the past a closed green, so that our incarnations for whatever reason, either via programming or due to inbuilt bias after the polarity flip, end up activating our green first while having great difficulty with orange and yellow. This has the slight benefit of precluding true negative polarization in the 3D forgetting and making it harder to fall back on sts energy patterns, but creating a difficult and catalystic life.
Disclaimer 1: I had this theory about negatives who switched polarities would for whatever reason have a 3D incarnation where they had inbuilt biases to ensure green was easier than orange or yellow to activate. I don't know for how many months I had this theory or why I pondered it.
Disclaimer 2: It's very rare in my dreams that real life people correspond to their real life selves - instead they are usually symbolic of a concept that I associate with them - Brittany, for you, I associate in my mind (perhaps without any correspondence to reality), flipping polarities. Thus, perhaps the dream was purely about exploring my own beliefs on the subjects described above.
Disclaimer 3: I don't resonate with the fact I may have been a negative sts entity prior to this 3D positive incarnation in linear time. However, if we talk about non-linear time, or infinite timelines, after integrating my sts shadow and accepting it, I feel connected to an sts version of myself from other timelines in non-linear time, but not in my linear past, if that makes sense.
My takeaway realization from this dream is that I believe I have a deep seated fear somewhere in my orange and yellow still that I've been working on that if they flow too much I will unleash some negative sts beast. It's obviously not the case, as Ra repeatedly states that orange and yellow are essential to a balance, vibrant, positive being, but it's something I'm balancing nonetheless. This stuff is hard, this stuff is hard...
I just got back from out of town where from a bar crawl Halloween so I got to shower for the first time in 36 hours lol, but there is this dream I had I think Friday that involved you, orange ray, and a discussion of switching polarities. I'll post my thoughts shortly.
So the dream, I don't remember much of it, but in the dream, we were talking about self-acceptance orange ray issues, we briefly talked about how Walker was also dealing with similar orange (or maybe yellow ray issues). Here's where it gets blurry either in the dream I had the following train of thought OR I had it after waking up and thinking about the dream: I was thinkingabout a theory that when negatives switch polarity some of us have a great deal of difficulty with orange and yellow because we used them in the past a closed green, so that our incarnations for whatever reason, either via programming or due to inbuilt bias after the polarity flip, end up activating our green first while having great difficulty with orange and yellow. This has the slight benefit of precluding true negative polarization in the 3D forgetting and making it harder to fall back on sts energy patterns, but creating a difficult and catalystic life.
Disclaimer 1: I had this theory about negatives who switched polarities would for whatever reason have a 3D incarnation where they had inbuilt biases to ensure green was easier than orange or yellow to activate. I don't know for how many months I had this theory or why I pondered it.
Disclaimer 2: It's very rare in my dreams that real life people correspond to their real life selves - instead they are usually symbolic of a concept that I associate with them - Brittany, for you, I associate in my mind (perhaps without any correspondence to reality), flipping polarities. Thus, perhaps the dream was purely about exploring my own beliefs on the subjects described above.
Disclaimer 3: I don't resonate with the fact I may have been a negative sts entity prior to this 3D positive incarnation in linear time. However, if we talk about non-linear time, or infinite timelines, after integrating my sts shadow and accepting it, I feel connected to an sts version of myself from other timelines in non-linear time, but not in my linear past, if that makes sense.
My takeaway realization from this dream is that I believe I have a deep seated fear somewhere in my orange and yellow still that I've been working on that if they flow too much I will unleash some negative sts beast. It's obviously not the case, as Ra repeatedly states that orange and yellow are essential to a balance, vibrant, positive being, but it's something I'm balancing nonetheless. This stuff is hard, this stuff is hard...
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