Reverting to the orange ray

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Wonderful thread! Loving the thoughts and the sharing of information. I will do my best to share what I have learned concerning the matter.

My entire life has been one big yellow battle. At first I hated myself...felt worthless Then, I was infatuated with myself, thought I was the hottest s*** there was. Now I am fairly well balanced concerning the yellow and my humility and nobility is very equal.

Yellow.
Male
Fire
Ego
Power/Ability
Confidence
Identity
Physical
Self awareness
Strength
Honor
Responsability
Humility / Nobility

Ankh: This morning I found out that I am now permanently hired at my work, that I am now one of the permanent employees at my job. My first reaction was that something so heavy lifted from my shoulders that I wanted to fly. Finally! After 3-4 years of uncertainity and fears, I am now finally permanently hired! I didn't even expect that this first reaction would be so intense and strong in terms of light and joy.

Well... This reaction didn't last long! Shortly after this reaction, there came dark, dark heaviness, and I felt in a very intensive way, and still do, being unworthy of this position, of this employment! There came images and thoughts and emotions in my mind, one after one, of why I was unworthy of this position too. I wanted to cry!

Notice how Ankh felt a "relief" after the thought of "worthiness upon power" was bestowed? Then, shortly afterwards, feeling overwhelmed/unworthy by the responsibility, his mind kept throwing different thoughts at him and thus resorting back to orange. I can best describe this with an analogy of shooting thousands of volts of energy into a 9volt battery and the battery going haywire. If the battery was strengthened over the years and ready for this energy, the energy would be directed accordingly.

Yellow is ultimately self awareness. It is the Choice. The choice of STO, and STS lies within. Realization of this power and knowing you are worthy of such can be scary. Usually because we do not want to admit the very fact that we are, by nature, Gods. The brighter the yellow, the more honor/responsibility there is.

This energy cycle element is fire. Fire can either shine BRIGHT and burn out(this is what we call a power trip, if you've done cocaine you know what I mean), or barely burn at all at die. What you want is ultimately a balanced, glowing, ember type state..or a candle. Energy that is there to flame with the air of love when needed, and revert back to its humility at the same time.
The yellow is your lightsaber. What you do with it is up to you.

Remember to "let go"...Relax. Don't stress it maneeee

Do not love through the yellow. Allow love to pass through it but to be expressed through the green. Loving through the yellow would ultimately be conditional love because it is ego based.

Since this yellow ray is related to the physical in nature The value of breath work and meditation can not be stressed enough concerning this matter Many times if I feel a blockage happening within the yellow, I can breath through it and thus balance it without reverting back to orange.

Be humble, for you are made of earth. Be noble, for you are made of stars