I've had guilt over this in the past, but nowadays I am without guilt and also don't feel drawn to porn on a daily basis. It should be noted that I never really got into commercial porn; I've generally only watched homemade because it seemed more real.
What helped me was:
1) Finding the love in all types of sex, whether red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo. I don't think entities that are capable of indigo sexual transfers look at green ray only transfers and think "oh my god how barbaric and primitive and un-evolved that green ray transfer is!" I think they recognize the sacramental nature of all sexual transfers, regardless of what ray it maxes out at between two entities. I try to appreciate all forms of sex.
2) Totally accepting my sexual desires. I grew up in a family where premarital sex is morally and ethically wrong, and where the implication was that sex was dirty except between two lifelong mates who wanted to procreate. I'm now totally ok with the fact that I have some very interesting sexual interests (probably just kinky, not any huge fetishes or anything), but dealing with this was difficult until I realized that sex is beautiful. There are no "perverts". Just the Creator experiencing itself.
3) Totally removing all self-judgment and guilt from anything I do or decide to do. I trust myself enough now to know I don't need deterrence from guilt and self-judgment to learn and evolve, and in fact they are an impediment.
Prior to these three things, I had trouble understanding my desire for porn and also felt like my desire controlled me more than I understood the desire. Now, I feel the sexual part of me is fully integrated into me, and I'm less drawn to porn and interestingly I gain much more enjoyment out of all sexual things, including porn, but also including flirting with an everyday girl (whereas previous there was some sort of porn desensitization that seemed to occur with real interactions with the opposite sex, probably because of or in combination with the orange ray imbalances discussed above).
That being said, man, I looove women. Sorry I had to mention that because living at home for a few months with the aforementioned family is rough on the dating life!
p.s. I think frequent masturbation doesn't do anything crazy to you energetically, just temporarily lowers your red ray...even the best of us need rest and recuperation!
What helped me was:
1) Finding the love in all types of sex, whether red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo. I don't think entities that are capable of indigo sexual transfers look at green ray only transfers and think "oh my god how barbaric and primitive and un-evolved that green ray transfer is!" I think they recognize the sacramental nature of all sexual transfers, regardless of what ray it maxes out at between two entities. I try to appreciate all forms of sex.
2) Totally accepting my sexual desires. I grew up in a family where premarital sex is morally and ethically wrong, and where the implication was that sex was dirty except between two lifelong mates who wanted to procreate. I'm now totally ok with the fact that I have some very interesting sexual interests (probably just kinky, not any huge fetishes or anything), but dealing with this was difficult until I realized that sex is beautiful. There are no "perverts". Just the Creator experiencing itself.
3) Totally removing all self-judgment and guilt from anything I do or decide to do. I trust myself enough now to know I don't need deterrence from guilt and self-judgment to learn and evolve, and in fact they are an impediment.
Prior to these three things, I had trouble understanding my desire for porn and also felt like my desire controlled me more than I understood the desire. Now, I feel the sexual part of me is fully integrated into me, and I'm less drawn to porn and interestingly I gain much more enjoyment out of all sexual things, including porn, but also including flirting with an everyday girl (whereas previous there was some sort of porn desensitization that seemed to occur with real interactions with the opposite sex, probably because of or in combination with the orange ray imbalances discussed above).
That being said, man, I looove women. Sorry I had to mention that because living at home for a few months with the aforementioned family is rough on the dating life!
p.s. I think frequent masturbation doesn't do anything crazy to you energetically, just temporarily lowers your red ray...even the best of us need rest and recuperation!
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