highly empathic

[Parsons]

Welcome to the club.

This was a big revelation to me because I realize that we receive the thoughts from others that they expect us to be thinking. So if they are talking to you and they expect that you are thinking in a certain way or a certain thing that will be projected out. How I see it is that the expectation creates the intention and it actually produces a thought which may then be a temptation to fulfill the expectation. For individuals who cannot differentiate the sources of different thoughts could very easily mistake the expectation intention of the other for their own thoughts.

I can confirm this. I have been investigating this exact concept for at least a year now. I have observed this behavior many times. It happens nearly 100% of the time when engaged in some kind of disagreement, no matter how mild it may seem on the surface. It actually seems to be based on if the person you are talking to actually sees you as another self (yellow ray or higher) rather than just an extension of pack (those reverting to orange ray). If they see you as another person enough that they value your opinion, they will not project a response on you, and your thoughts and replies to them will be clearer because you are not trying to drown out their expectations.

I have also observed (many, many times) the behavior of when getting to know other people, they try to categorize you so they can 'check an invisible box' in their mind to categorize your responses in the future. For example, you will tell them something they think is Christian in origin, so they will ask you your faith in hopes they can 'check that box' and predict/explain future behavior. I am guilty of this behavior in the extreme as that is how I got by the majority of this incarnation before I awoke. I am attempting to kick that behavior so I can engage everyone with an open mind and heart.

Due to my new (dynamic) beliefs, I literally have no boxes that anyone could check. I go out of my way to make it clear to others when asking me questions like that I literally have no set belief system which I could name for them. I am not any political party, religion or faith, or philosophy. They can't check any box so it either makes people take notice of me, be subtly afraid of me, and/or just think I'm just plain crazy. To compound the matter, my empathy projection mechanism causes me to have difficulty differentiating my own feelings of unease with those who are uneasy around me, so I end up stuttering more and have more difficulty with spoken/written language.

As a result of my findings, I have been working on differentiating my own feelings from others projections. It's quite difficult because my empathic abilities have strengthened significantly in the past 2 years, which causes me to slip up quite often and think that another's projection is how I am actually feeling.