Generally dis-satisfied with this illusion.

[Sagittarius]

Ok, you want to be a student, but one who doesn't learn or "use experience" as Ra says? Sounds like you are confused.

I've been confused my whole life.

*edit* I've met NO single person that has been able to lead me further on my path. Instead I've almost become addicted to meeting new people as I get to find out more about myself with each new interaction. At the same time, I'm terrified of being friendless and alone. This leads me to attach to every new person that I meet. At the same time, having found the LOO, it's difficult to accept that any 'traditional' path for growth is better than simply experiencing, meditating, and accepting.

Your troubles mirror every other self's troubles, just seen through a unique array of lens i.e your individually conscious self. How do those lens change i.e line up ? As we have said experience, chasing the things you feel fear/think about until they are accepted and seen through a more complete picture. The feeling/sensing component can't be described with words they must be felt/experienced. Feeling/sensation are timeless, once this is experienced then the view/sight of us can be disregarded.

Although both time (feeling) space (seeing) seem to operate on the same principles in regards to the individuation process. You basically see things one by one in time, and feel feelings one by one in time. If you visualize it like at the very beginning you see one picture in one time and one feeling in one time, both the picture and the feeling interact to multiply and divide in a space of time till the complete feeling and picture is seen wholly in consciousness.

The whole picture of self or spirit is the 3rd factor and this relates to the speed at which wholeness is seen in consciousness. We are this thing so we are the speed so to say. Really these words don't matter, doesn't matter the circumstance ( view and feelings of space and time) the speed will only get speedier.