12-20-2013, 02:34 AM
sorry i haven't read the long posts yet im tired right now.
I don't know why it is we even talked, lol, seems to be a great source of confusion though there is a complex and simple mystery afoot where/when/why/how/whom-soever we search.
I posted this somewhere else cause it was honestly how i felt, but I think it belongs in this thread rather;
and so I am hungry for this love.
GentleReckoning,
I once received a little piece of quartz from you.
When I got this it was buzzing in my hand but it took a day to adjust.
The adjustment was this; the hollandite was not capable of working with me until I was to lose my distorted perception of dissatisfaction with 'the illusion', 'circumstance', etc. 'The moment' when I consciously accepted/adopted the perception of 'all is well' we were afforded a great heart opening healing, learning, expressive and very rare opportunity.
There are no words to explain my gratitude.
What I am meaning to say is do what you feel and it will come, it seems lol.
I want wholeness and this is seems so hard to achieve here and even harder working alone.
I tend to hate many aspects of my day to day life and have much trouble integrating the lessons of patience and also the concept of 'negativity' and how stupid of an idea it seems like to me (the "individual") and also to grasp the quality of the concept of complete separation having to re-member and re-integrate the self into the self and this expression of life that affords bliss by means of suffering and discontent.
I am dissatisfied with the means by which the universe experiences Itself in this region of space, time, energy, thought...
HAHHA I am dissatisfied with my lack of satisfaction, and feel alone because of having secluded my self from others.
I hate/enjoy the idea of making choices and i need to rest now so i may continue wandering.
one love friends.
I don't know why it is we even talked, lol, seems to be a great source of confusion though there is a complex and simple mystery afoot where/when/why/how/whom-soever we search.
I posted this somewhere else cause it was honestly how i felt, but I think it belongs in this thread rather;
(12-20-2013, 01:44 AM)primordial abyss Wrote: nothing is necessary, life had not to be in any way shape or form We got bored and f***** ourself over.(notice the sarcastic tone, lol)
not to worry though we created temporary misfortunes for our learning of love.
and so I am hungry for this love.
GentleReckoning,
I once received a little piece of quartz from you.
When I got this it was buzzing in my hand but it took a day to adjust.
The adjustment was this; the hollandite was not capable of working with me until I was to lose my distorted perception of dissatisfaction with 'the illusion', 'circumstance', etc. 'The moment' when I consciously accepted/adopted the perception of 'all is well' we were afforded a great heart opening healing, learning, expressive and very rare opportunity.
There are no words to explain my gratitude.
What I am meaning to say is do what you feel and it will come, it seems lol.
I want wholeness and this is seems so hard to achieve here and even harder working alone.
I tend to hate many aspects of my day to day life and have much trouble integrating the lessons of patience and also the concept of 'negativity' and how stupid of an idea it seems like to me (the "individual") and also to grasp the quality of the concept of complete separation having to re-member and re-integrate the self into the self and this expression of life that affords bliss by means of suffering and discontent.
I am dissatisfied with the means by which the universe experiences Itself in this region of space, time, energy, thought...
HAHHA I am dissatisfied with my lack of satisfaction, and feel alone because of having secluded my self from others.
I hate/enjoy the idea of making choices and i need to rest now so i may continue wandering.
one love friends.