Dear Agony Aunt.... from a broke Wanderer

[Fang]

Wisdom is built from experience, if you want to avoid being in your current situation again, learn from what you are experiencing currently.

For what it's worth (don't base an important life decision on what I, a stranger on the internet say please lol) for you to be capable of serving others in a significant fashion you must have something to give, to offer. if you give everything away with no regards for yourself you will find yourself unable to help yourself or others. So yeah, serve others or whatever but provide for yourself and your family first, if you have any left over that would do you no harm parting from maybe give that away, but build yourself up first so you are in a position to do that consistently.

I wouldn't worry about the harvest grade mate, entities are harvested when they have learned the necessary lessons and achieved balance from that. In the (from your point of view) worst case scenario that you don't make the 51% (which I personally doubt, for what it's worth I've enjoyed your input and "touch", it seemed to always come from a place of compassion) it would only mean that it would more beneficial for you to progress later.