Self-Transformations

[Plenum]

you know, there was a point earlier in my seeking when it was all about the knowledge and the 'data'. This was not just the spiritual seeking; this was a phase after I left high school and continued on into my college (university) years. Lots of reading, on all sorts of topics. Knowledge, information, narrative. It was great fun! finding out about the world through the considered narratives (ie 'books') of others.

and I am sure it promoted or stimulated a lot of mental activity.

but there also came a point (much later on!) when the seeking became much more focussed, and there was a realisation that 'self-transformations' were the only thing that would change my experience of reality. I was still a fairly grumpy, angry, asocial individual at that point, despite all my attempts to acquire knowledge and 'understanding'.

that is not to say all the previous years were wasted; far from it; it formed a solid foundation of 'reality' on which to continue the next stage.

but it was in the Self-Applied-Transformations which enabled a different experience of reality. A changing of root attitudes towards experience, the ability to address certain personality distortions that had been magnified over time, and were serving as a thorn for myself and others.

I could barely even use the word 'love' up to that point; I viewed it as being so corrupted by how our society used that word.

So the self-transformations began, and continue to this day. Each Transformation clears blockages, and allows for a greater flow of light through the energy system; or put in more prosaic terms, the Transformations are applied through the Death, the Lovers, and the Judgement Archetypes, leading to an overall 'changing' or attitudinal approach to incoming data/experience.

if you don't like who you are, or how you interact with others, there's only one way to address that; and that's through Self-Transformations. The catalyst is already being offered, moment by moment, as feedback. If that catalyst is accepted and then utilised as Experience, and worked through, changes will be recorded in the Significator ('the Lessons') which enable a Transformation in experience.

of course, it doesn't really need to be understood at that level; all that one needs to know is that if one is experiencing feelings/emotions that are distorted away from love, then that is catalyst. It is as simple as that. It is an opportunity to use those feelings/emotions that are not love for further growth. If its not addressed, those same feelings/emotions will just return again and again, over and over; if they're not utilised, it will just repeat. Because if your root attitudes have not changed, the response (outcome) will be exactly the same.

Self-Transformations are there and waiting. And it is the only real way to change one's experience of this reality.

experience occurs in the mind, and can only be addressed at that level. Everything else is basically just 'data'.