Passing the time

[Unbound]

I think a greater question here is what do you want from yourself, since you are both the Creator and your Higher Self?

By all means, I do not mean to suggest that you have not already made great progress, and I know all too well how easy it is to go in to a state of mind where we look at our progress and consider it insignificant in light of progress to be made. Every experience and thought you have had has lead you here to this moment where you are encountering a reflection of yourself via me and others and it is well to honour all the work you have done to this point.

If you ask me, your guides feel the utmost compassion for you and in no way judge you for your state, rather they await, as they always have, for their chance to love you or support you when you so choose.

If you want my rawest opinion, there isn't really a whole lot of change that needs to happen to get you beyond this point. There is one core choice in every moment, life or death. To choose life is to live and be alive, to choose death is to stagnate and rot until you deteriorate. I apologize for the grim imagery but as I see it, you have only a choice to make and that is whether or not you are going to live, or not.

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If you ask me, when you said that you sometimes don't want to go to sleep because you feel you will miss out on the world, that came through to me as a very heartfelt thought, and honestly I think clearly reveals that although death may be appealing to you, I think you yearn to choose life.