04-12-2014, 06:33 PM
(This post was last modified: 04-12-2014, 06:52 PM by AnthroHeart.)
If I will be so honest to say how I truly feel as an STO being.
I don't know. Ra did say it takes foolhardy bravery to come here, because of the risk of forgetting. I've been praying to Creator to go home. I don't really want to be here anymore. And I feel I'm a 6th density wanderer. I probably thought what a way to accelerate my spiritual development.
Q'uo I believe it was also said that the shadow self is harder to deal with in the higher densities. Probably one reason for coming here. I have had trouble adapting to the 3d vibrations. I didn't know early in life about this, but I was pretty lonely my whole life. I didn't feel of this world. I remember a few times looking at the stars, wandering if my real home was out there.
I think 6th density STO beings are wise too. We come here to serve. But this service is tiring. I could have served just as easily from a higher density. But not in the same way. Service is different. Maybe I loved Creator enough to experience a whole cycle of 3D over again, and wanted to give Creator a colorful and varied experience. I imagine the days in higher density stretch on as one infinitely balances themselves. I feel like I've been here (in 3D) for a long time. But I can't be sure. This life I feel I've caused enough trouble, and I don't want to hurt anyone else. Sometimes I feel like being here is a mistake. But Ra says there are no mistakes.
Oh what it must be like to go home. To where your very thoughts manifest. And you don't have responsibilities beyond seeking Creator. Such is the life of the higher self, with no desire but to seek Creator. I sometimes feel that way.
Unless I'm all wrong and I'm a 3D native. I don't feel that way though. Great thread btw.
So why would I downgrade to 3D from 6D. Maybe it helped me find Creator faster, or work my distortions more effectively. Though I can't see how with the veil here and me not able to see my distortions.
I don't know. Ra did say it takes foolhardy bravery to come here, because of the risk of forgetting. I've been praying to Creator to go home. I don't really want to be here anymore. And I feel I'm a 6th density wanderer. I probably thought what a way to accelerate my spiritual development.
Q'uo I believe it was also said that the shadow self is harder to deal with in the higher densities. Probably one reason for coming here. I have had trouble adapting to the 3d vibrations. I didn't know early in life about this, but I was pretty lonely my whole life. I didn't feel of this world. I remember a few times looking at the stars, wandering if my real home was out there.
I think 6th density STO beings are wise too. We come here to serve. But this service is tiring. I could have served just as easily from a higher density. But not in the same way. Service is different. Maybe I loved Creator enough to experience a whole cycle of 3D over again, and wanted to give Creator a colorful and varied experience. I imagine the days in higher density stretch on as one infinitely balances themselves. I feel like I've been here (in 3D) for a long time. But I can't be sure. This life I feel I've caused enough trouble, and I don't want to hurt anyone else. Sometimes I feel like being here is a mistake. But Ra says there are no mistakes.
Oh what it must be like to go home. To where your very thoughts manifest. And you don't have responsibilities beyond seeking Creator. Such is the life of the higher self, with no desire but to seek Creator. I sometimes feel that way.
Unless I'm all wrong and I'm a 3D native. I don't feel that way though. Great thread btw.
So why would I downgrade to 3D from 6D. Maybe it helped me find Creator faster, or work my distortions more effectively. Though I can't see how with the veil here and me not able to see my distortions.