Meditative visions - and other visualisations.

[isis]

I would think infinite space would be freeing. Although in dreams, very distant objects like the most remote stars freak me out because I'm afraid if I focus on them, I'll be teleported far from home and not be able to come back. It's also hard for me to meditate on being in front of the sun, or a large star because of fear of being pulled into it. Though I did have one supercharged meditation where I visualized being in the sun. It was quite energizing.

there was a time when i found it freeing. i still kinda do but i can't take it for more than a few minutes

i think i did a bad job explaining how i do it so i'll try again. i imagine the blackness that i see when i close my eyes is actually space...not an eyelid, not 2d, but 3d - an infinite room w/ no end, no beginning, no walls...makes me feel like a vacuum or like a black hole