Is there yellow-ray love?

[Melissa]

What kind of decision gem?

To focus on whether it's time to depart 3D or not. And not by suicide, but by magical means, mental focus, with the support of my higher self. I feel balanced, but do not want to cause imbalance in my mother by my focus. My mental focus is causing some degree of headache and body ache in me. I feel it is working. Bashar says that if you're balanced, you can simply close your eyes, and depart. But there are so many friends I would leave behind. I get this nagging suspicion that it's time to go. I speak of it to death on this site, so I didn't want to really bring it up. I am in service in ways that I can be. I also feel I can be more of service in the other dimensions.

No idea if that works but I highly doubt it, I think you could be more of service, and more importantly; happier, if you would be more 'STS', by that I mean arranging your life in a way that suits you better than it does now. Because the situation with your mom clearly doesn't work. Enable yourself to go to furry conventions and meet new friends and I don't know if there are other family members who are more supportive? It's your life Gem, your choice, of course, but it's somewhat worrying to 'see' how you're going out of your way, quite literally, to be of service. In a way which ultimately doesn't really serve anyone..