Is there yellow-ray love?

[AnthroHeart]

I assumed I would walk the steps of light when I had departed Earth. But perhaps I am confused. Maybe departing by means of focusing the will upon that desire might be considered a form of suicide, however ritualized it is. I don't want to be this close to harvest and somehow blow it.

I don't want to repeat 3D, even one incarnation. I guess the best way to depart is through accessing intelligent infinity, which Ra says that once you've accessed that most people choose to stay to help others. I've helped others a lot. I've served my mother beyond my comfort zone.

But I can learn to love life. I want to be fully conscious about where I focus my will. It just felt like the right thing to do.