04-16-2014, 09:40 AM
I understand what you mean Melissa by being more STS. Serving myself more. I feel I am already doing enough for myself. I sometimes can feel rather selfish that I meditate all the time, and am lazy at work. I also am doubting that being able to leave through thought alone is possible. I'm not sure. It seems to work in those who have lost the will to live. But I haven't lost the will to live. Just thought that I should move on. Yet here I am, after a full day of meditating on departing yesterday.
I'm not much of a social butterfly, so I don't usually go to conventions. But I was at one furry convention that I really liked. It's just so far away, and now that I'm paying back a large loan I don't have the funds to do so. At least not for the next 2-3 years.
I interpret your last post Melissa as matter of fact. I can't kick my mom out, since she has nowhere to go. And it's not as bad now as it's been in the past. I've gotten used to her spurts of anger.
I'm not much of a social butterfly, so I don't usually go to conventions. But I was at one furry convention that I really liked. It's just so far away, and now that I'm paying back a large loan I don't have the funds to do so. At least not for the next 2-3 years.
I interpret your last post Melissa as matter of fact. I can't kick my mom out, since she has nowhere to go. And it's not as bad now as it's been in the past. I've gotten used to her spurts of anger.