Is there yellow-ray love?

[AnthroHeart]

I've learned to say no to my mom at times, especially when she's trying to be controlling. She was screaming at her phone at the top of her voice, and that bothers me because I don't like people shouting. I shouted back at her to shut up. It's the first time I've done so. Not sure if I am lacking yellow or green ray love when I get into an argument like that. She didn't say anything back to me. She got me quite angry.

Maybe I am not as balanced as I thought, because her throwing a tantrum upsets me because it goes on and on. She carries on for a long time.

And then she expects me to carry her wheelchair out to the truck. It's heavy, like 100+ pounds, in 3 parts that I have to disassemble and reassemble like 4 times to go to the store. I don't like this burden of carrying it, as it's a chore. And she doesn't seem even thankful for me doing it. She'd just rather ride around on her wheelchair than to take a shopping cart and do it the regular way. But it's been a few months since I've had to carry her wheelchair. She's talking about possibly needing it soon.

Then she commands me to take my dogs outside when they're perfectly happy indoors. They make me happy being inside with me. They've already been out to relieve themselves this morning. I have a fenced in yard that's 1/2 acre in the back. So I never have to clean up after them. They go back in the woods.