Why should 6th density beings downgrading themselves to 3th density?

[AnthroHeart]

I thought long and hard about wanting to depart 3D again, and was presented a question/feeling. Do I love the Earth enough to stay? And I said yes, and felt love in me, and got goosebumps. It wasn't about my dog, it wasn't about my mom. It was the world. And do I have enough love for it to not go to a more harmonious place? My answer was yes. I was actually pleading with my higher self to go, whether it be heart attack or kidney failure. I don't feel my soul contract holds me here any longer. At least I don't feel obligated by that. But out of my total free will I love others enough to stay. But I could be wrong about my soul contract. My mom will miss me if I go.

The other day I got the feeling of wanting to depart as well, and passed through a mental test of whether I was sure, and I was sure at that time. However, I'm still here.

This is probably something that will continually come up within me.

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Then I thought, who am I to depart? I've done some pretty bad stuff here.