05-05-2014, 05:09 PM
(05-05-2014, 12:49 AM)Folk-love Wrote: I find myself in the same boat as Gemini quite often. And I don't know why. I've noticed I've been carrying a lot of restlessness and tension around with me as of late, almost as if I'm waiting for something to happen. I've been unable to sleep because I keep saying things like, "I don't want to rest anymore, I want to live darn it". I guess I feel as though life is mundane and my appetite for life is not being filled. Breathing is helpful. I think it's important to know where your breathing from as well. Diaphragm, right?
It's a little frustrating for me because when I've had mystical experiences, they haven't been fun. I've felt bliss a couple of times, and once in a dream. Once was an overpowering bliss in my heart.
But usually I've had to face the dark side of myself, thinking that my friends were going to hurt me.
I sleep well otherwise. I enjoy my sleep time, because I get to dream. Despite some disturbing dreams, most of them are beneficial, and much more a joy to be in than real life.
Right now I do have some restlessness due to my sensitivity to the Field. It's all around, but I feel that I feel it. Either that or I'm picking up other people's anxieties, just translating it differently. As I don't feel anxious. Just restless.
I want more magic in my life. In the past I was tempted to try to become an adept, and I've been called an adept due to my energy sensitivity, but I don't feel like one.
My higher self must be laughing at me right now, being all confused and such.