One Day Closer

[AnthroHeart]

I am anxious.
It feels like the day of release will never come.
I forgot everything to be here.
Maybe I'm proud to think that I gave up everything to be here.
I don't know.
I don't feel special.
Whether I'm a wanderer or not.
Whether the Ra material is true or not.
I just feel like I don't belong.
I'm called at work to do things I don't like.
At home I deal with people who frustrate me.
It feels like my flame of love has been put out.
When I look at my dog, whom I love, I just don't feel it now.
But I'm not crying. I'm a little sad though.
Because I think I'd rather be somewhere else.
I don't know where though.
I know they say we're right where we're supposed to be.
The vibration we're supposed to be at.
But mine isn't that good or well.
I carry a weight inside.
That I cannot seem to set aside.