08-06-2014, 09:43 AM
(This post was last modified: 08-06-2014, 09:51 AM by Immortalis Vigil.)
Lulu:
My journey into darkness was predicated on the idea that it was the most expedient means of ascension and achieving my goals. However, as I journeyed deeper into STS I found the energy oppressively heavy and uncomfortable. I believe this is in part due to the planet herself transitioning to a higher positive vibration. I also think fully exploring my darkness was a necessary step in my ongoing growth and remembering of self. Only when I submersed myself fully into darkness did I remember the journey and end point of that path.
I have always felt called to lead and save humanity, and in my arrogance and naivete I thought to do so by working within the status quo. I would save humanity and myself through Enlightened self-interest. I would let my ambition and personal power fuel my way to the top, then turn upon the short-sighted fools destroying this world and show them the true face of the void. In this respect I suppose even then l was guided by some higher desires to be of service to others, but given my long past of STS it was all too easy to join once more in the game of conquest and destruction. I realized the futility of my efforts when I recognized that I no longer wanted to save the world - but that my desire had become to rule or destroy it. I have been the Destroyer of Worlds, but this time I feel called to assist in its salvation, and salvation requires the light of love for the creation.
Beyond that, no one person or thing led me out of darkness. Furthermore, I am hesitant to place judgments on that path. Some must experience destruction before they can appreciate creation. In my own efforts to help others along their journey I have learned that we can serve as examples, companions, and sign posts for our fellow travelers, but ultimately, each makes their own journey. When we take on responsibility for the spiritual path of our fellow travelers, we become consumed by the problems we wish to alleviate. I believe the best we can do is greet fellow travelers with open hearts, while remaining wise enough to know that on the timeline of infinity each makes their own journey, at their own pace, back to the Creator.
My journey into darkness was predicated on the idea that it was the most expedient means of ascension and achieving my goals. However, as I journeyed deeper into STS I found the energy oppressively heavy and uncomfortable. I believe this is in part due to the planet herself transitioning to a higher positive vibration. I also think fully exploring my darkness was a necessary step in my ongoing growth and remembering of self. Only when I submersed myself fully into darkness did I remember the journey and end point of that path.
I have always felt called to lead and save humanity, and in my arrogance and naivete I thought to do so by working within the status quo. I would save humanity and myself through Enlightened self-interest. I would let my ambition and personal power fuel my way to the top, then turn upon the short-sighted fools destroying this world and show them the true face of the void. In this respect I suppose even then l was guided by some higher desires to be of service to others, but given my long past of STS it was all too easy to join once more in the game of conquest and destruction. I realized the futility of my efforts when I recognized that I no longer wanted to save the world - but that my desire had become to rule or destroy it. I have been the Destroyer of Worlds, but this time I feel called to assist in its salvation, and salvation requires the light of love for the creation.
Beyond that, no one person or thing led me out of darkness. Furthermore, I am hesitant to place judgments on that path. Some must experience destruction before they can appreciate creation. In my own efforts to help others along their journey I have learned that we can serve as examples, companions, and sign posts for our fellow travelers, but ultimately, each makes their own journey. When we take on responsibility for the spiritual path of our fellow travelers, we become consumed by the problems we wish to alleviate. I believe the best we can do is greet fellow travelers with open hearts, while remaining wise enough to know that on the timeline of infinity each makes their own journey, at their own pace, back to the Creator.
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