what do you want?

[Conifer16]

At this moment in my life, my deepest desire is to have total and passive financial stability.

I would like to be at a place in life from which I do not have to even think about if I will have the money to pay for any living expenses. A place where if I want to go traveling, or go see a show, or buy a friend a gift; I don't consider the cost. I just know that I have the money. My entire childhood was spent with the knowledge that often times my parents were almost unable to make enough to pay for the basics. Food, water, shelter, power.

I have so many things I want to do.

-Wingsuit diving
-Sailing
-Piloting an airplane
-Traveling Europe
-Traveling to as many U.S national parks as I can
-Figuring out how the Atlanteans used crystals for energy and other purposes from a technological bent
-Skiing
-Snowboarding
-Being able to help my friends and family financially whenever they need it. No matter the amount needed.
-Being able to help other people struggling to make a life for themselves.
-Being able to spend money and time on charities that actually make a difference.
-Etc..

And currently I feel constricted. Confined.

I feel like the weight of having no money is pushing back at me. That because of the poverty cycle I was born into, somehow all of the freedom of time and money I described above is closed to me.

I am doing my best to stay positive. Even in the face of my family and some of my friends saying that I will just have to struggle like everyone else.

I am working towards building a small E-commerce business through Amazon for right now.

In my head I am determining what other avenues of income I could go after.

I spend all my time researching various ways I could make money.

I spend my time reassessing my personal relationship with money. And am actively working on making this relationship a positive one.

What I want right now...

Freedom of schedule. Total financial stability and flow. Friendship.