This is War - Psychedelics

[Cyanatta]

I've tried different psychedelics over the years and I've developed or had some interesting relationships with each. I've tried LSD quite a few times now, but I'd say no more than 10 sessions that I can recall. I usually have pretty introspective experiences with it, and as with other psychedelics I prefer to use them in a more ceremonious or spiritual manner, although most people I've taken acid with usually do so for more recreational reasons, which is fine as a unique experience in itself, but I like to respect the "teacher" and understand what new things I can gain from the experience, rather than just using as an escape from the mundane.

I've had two experiences with psilocybin, the first one being rather profound and more or less the reason I eventually stumbled on the Law of One and this website. It was an extremely enlightening experience to say the least, and I've been told by a friend shortly after that what I had experienced was closely described as "ego-death" or something similar. I haven't been the same ever since really. I couldn't shut up about love, unity, and everything being connected via multiple dimensions/holograms and all that good stuff to the point where I drove some of my friends nuts haha. But I definitely learned a lot from the experience and kept a lot of the wisdom gained from it with me to this day. It was absolutely terrifying when it first set in, I'll admit that. In fact, with my anxiety at the time, the experience basically flipped my world upside down and basically shoved me off the cliff of reality to face all my fears, worries, delusions, lies to myself and others, and more or less came down to me forgiving myself, everyone, and everything for thinking I was ever disconnected from "source" in the first place, completely freeing every aspect of my being. So yeah, it was extremely frightening at first, even with the crazy visuals, but acknowledging who you truly are, or just acknowledging your true "naked" self can be extremely traumatic sometimes when we're not ready for it. I feel like I was fortunate enough to be in good company at the time (albeit not the "greatest" but it could have been worse - again, the recreational users I was around weren't always the most "shamanistic" when it came to trip sitting), but I would advise choosing a comfortable setting and people you feel comfortable with if you're not sure how you'll react to psychedelics. My second experience with mushrooms was waaaay more enjoyable. In nature, with a close friend I knew growing up, around a fire, in the woods on a beautiful clear sky day, and just non-stop philosophical/existential discussions with periods in between for our own introspection/contemplation/observation. It was quite simply, a very beautiful experience.

However most of my first time experiences with psychedelics, even cannabis, had some rather shaky beginnings because of my anxiety, but on the flip side I feel like I've learned to overcome a lot of my anxiety because of psychedelics and have grown to be a more understanding, forgiving, loving, caring person because of them. I wouldn't say exclusively, but they definitely helped me open up more as a person. I think of their use as unique learning experiences, and although I feel myself becoming more distant from them now, especially as I move towards more meditative practices, I still think there's always a time and place for anyone who wishes to try them responsibly. I just don't think they should be consumed to the point where you're no longer "surprised" by the experience. I think that's the point where you've no more use for the "teacher" and have no more immediate lessons to be learned from your relationship with her. Again, as a pain killer I can understand daily use, and I understand there's even cannabinoids specific for that purpose, but personally I've been trying to move away from habitual use, even for social reasons, for the sake of discovering how creative or caring I can be without the need for constant herbal assistance. Granted, that's easier said than done, but I'm working on it . (Especially as more psychedelics, namely cannabis, are legalized). Mary can be quite the temptress sometimes.

I'm partial to Graham Hancock's view as far as letting people have sovereignty over their own consciousness and experimenting with psychedelics as they see fit. He even admitted, for creative purposes as a writer, that he was basically smoking so much weed to the point where it was disrupting his life and severing close connections to his friends and family. It wasn't until his sessions with ayahuasca that he said "mother ayahuasca" revealed the truth of the matter to him, becoming an outside observer of himself and seeing how his cannabis use truly was distancing himself from the people he cared about. He also wrote a book called Supernatural about his experience with ayahuasca, psilocybin, and other psychedelics if you want to read an interesting book on the matter. I haven't tried DMT or ayahuasca myself but I've meaning to for sometime, if I can ever make my way down to the Peruvian jungle, haha.